I'm having huge issues with friends and boyfriends. I've never had real friends cause, when I think of hanging out with people, I start to get panick attacks. I'm 16 now but I've had it since kindergarden. Honestly I'm perfectly happy alone, but my family is getting really upset, and people at school think I hate them, when I don't invite them over. I'm sick of people saying I blow it out of proportion and I just need to try and hang out with people and I'll see that I like it. But I've tried, many times and its just awkward for everyone. Just about the only thing that helps is alchohal, but I don't want that controling my life. My only friend is my sister, when she's not around I just read. I've tried going on dates before, but the minute I hear the word boyfriend I feel like running for my life. Please help me, I don't know what else to do