Hi, 

I have been smoking for the past 10 years,  i started when i was 15. I really want to quit now and i have tried several times in the past years but nothing is sustainable. 

It's not the physical withdrawal that i am afraid but social withdrawal scares the hell out of me. I just don't know what would i do without cigarettes when i am hanging out with my friends. I feel like it would be so awkward to be silent and not smoke. I think cigarettes for me are lika conversation starters. I don't know.

I also feel like people who don't smoke are not happy or even better, the ones who used to smoke think about it every day.

What can i do about it? I know it's bad for me.