I have read several of the stories posted on here and i am glad to hear that what i am feeling is normal, if you can really consider it just that! I have been on Subs for the last two years taking 8mg twice a day i decided it was time to get off them and i gradually went down to a quarter a day untill i ran out which took me a few months and i didnt expect to feel as horrible as i do, i went through every phase of the detox and now i seem to have no energy, sex drive or desire to get out of bed all though due to constant muscle spasms cant seem to sleep. I have been taking Valarian root at night and it doesnt seem to be helping one bit! I made this decision because i no longer wish to be dependedent on any thing and i thought that it was the right time but now i am not so sure it was, i really just want my FreAkiNg life back! My boyfriend, family and friends have been so supportive and proud of me for getting this far and i dont want to dissapoint any one, but am i wieghing my sobriety against there opinions? I guess if i really have to ask that question i should already know the answer but i just feel that i have come so far that it would be the stupidist thing for me to go back on Subs and go through all this again one day~! I guess I really just need some advice from people that have been where i am right now and i am honestly just wondering if i will ever feel normal again?~OR atleast my definition of it!?!