Anyone here overweight and bulimic?

I AM BULIMIC SINCE FOREVER. I TOLD MY HUSBAND AS WE WERE DATING. NOW WE HAVE BEEN MARRIED FOR FIVE YEARS AND WE HAVE A GREAT MARRIAGE. MY HUSBAND IS A GREAT MAN AND WORK VERY HARD SO HE CAN PROVIDE US WITH EVERYTHING POSSIBLE. WE DON’T HAVE KIDS, BUT WE’LL LIKE TO HAVE JUST ONE IN THE FUTURE.

THE OTHER NIGHT I HAD A HUGE URGE TO VOMIT SO BAD AFTER DINNER, HE REALIZED SO AND TALK TO ME OUT OF NOT GOING TO THE BATHROOM AND VOMIT WHAT WE JUST SHARED OVER DINNER. MY HUSBAND IS A COP, HE IS GOOD AT TALKING PEOPLE OUT OF BAD SITUATIONS. MY HUSBAND GOT ME INTO BED AND CALM ME DOWN AS I CRY FOR WANTING TO VOMIT MY FOOD. I TOLD HIM THAT IT WAS BOTHERING ME INSIDE AND IT WAS HURTING ME; AND HE IN A CALM TONE OF VOICE SAID: IT HURTS BECAUSE IT NEED TO BE TALKED ABOUT AND MAYBE WITH A HELP OF A THERAPIST IT CAN HELP YOU OR HELP ME TO HELP YOU TO THROW IT ALL UP IN WORDS, AND ADDED: SOMETHING IS BOTHERING YOU INSIDE AND WE NEED TO DEAL WITH IT WITH THE HELP OF A THERAPIST. HE CONTINUE TOUCHING MY HAIR SOFTLY UNTIL I FALL ASLEEP. IN THE MORNING, AS WE WERE HAVING BREAKFAST HE ASKED ME HOW I WAS FEELING AND STATED THAT IT WAS TIME FOR ME TO START TO SEE A THERAPIST, I ASK HIM IF HE COULD COME WITH ME AND HE SAID THAT OF COURSE HE WILL BE THERE BY MY SIDE ALL THE STEP OF THE WAY. HE ALSO ASSURE THAT HE MAY NOT BE ABLE TO AGREE IN EVERYTHING I WANTED IMPLYING THROWING UP, BUT HE WILL GIVE ME TOUGH LOVE IF THAT IS NECESSARY FOR ME TO OVERCOME MY EATING DISORDER. I THINK THAT HE HAS DONE YESTERDAY BY NOT LETTING ME APPROACH THE BATHROOM AND REDIRECT ME TO OUR BED.

I LIKE TO HAVE MY HUSBAND AWARE THAT I SUFFER FROM BULIMIA, BECAUSE HE IS A GREAT DEAL OF HELP AS IS, I WILL START SEEING A THERAPIST AS SOON AS NEXT WEEK AND HE WILL COME TO EVERY SESSION WITH ME TO SUPPORT ME ALL THE WAY, BUT I AM SCARE ABOUT THAT TOUGH LOVE.

THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME EXPRESS MY THROUGHTS.

14, and I have been bulimic for a year now.
I was always happy, and never thought about my weight till two years ago.
Now thats all I can think about. i havnt told anyone, which is making me feel alone.
I weight 112 lbs and I'm 5"2. I'm aiming for 100 lbs, but I'm not sure I'll be happy when I reach that. I really want to stop, but I don't know how to. i just wish I was thin, and happy just like some of those girls I see, getting a piggyback ride from a guy.
Sucks, your lucky your almost recovered.

Ladies, I too have suffered from bulimia.... I have been on track for nearly 6 years now.... I ended up pregnant and my child meant more to me than I meant to myself!! No, I am not saying that you should go out and get pregnant but, this phrase was given to me by someone in my family and it truly helped me everyday of my pregnancy and struggle with being bulimic.... No I was responsible for two lives....

I really would advise you to repeat this to yourself as much as possible but at least 3 times a day I want you to look at yourself and tell yourself.....

I am Beautiful, Capable, Lovable, Peaceful, Patient, Positive and Powerful!!!!!

I want you to believe these words cause NO matter what you weight or how tall you are or if your hair is short or long NO matter what skin color you are!!!!

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, CAPABLE, LOVABLE, PEACEFUL, PATIENT, POSITIVE AND POWERFUL!!!!!

YOUR LIFE IS WORTH LIVING TO ITS FULLIEST!!!!! YOU ARE WORTHY OF BEING TRULY HAPPY!!!! YOU ARE LOVED!!!! YOU ARE SPECIAL!!!!

I will keep all of you that are suffering an ED in my prayers!!!!

Best of Wishes to all of you!!!!

Hya Im Steph. Im 22 and weigh 294lbs...yeh I am HUGE!!! I have been bulimic since I was 14-15years old and after 7 years and getting help since I was 20 (ive stopped now as its not helping). I have tried EVERYTHING and I did manage to lose 3 stone (well actually 6 stone as I was 24stones at my heaviest) but I put it back on when I moved house. I used to go to the gym everyday but the one Ive joined now, I absolutly hate. I do not feel comfortable there, I feel like everyone is staring at me.
I am completly broken as I hate how I look and feel, I am very worried about my health as I'm purging so much. I keep getting ill and being so worn out. All I want to do is eat 'junk food' and when I eat so much I'm in pain, I then have the desperate need to rid myself of it all.

I do not know what to do anymore I feel like I have lost all battles with mia. I rarely see my friends anymore and Im even uncomfortable at home.

Can anyone help me. Ive done the healthy eating thing, ive tried councelling for 2 years and attended e/d clinics that just made me worse. Ive tried absolutly everything, does anyone have anymore tips that could possibly help that I haven't heard before????

well right now im 16 going to be 17 in a month im around 200 lbs :-( i know its awful. when i was younger ive cried after i had visited the doctors because they would always tell me how over weight i was. And at home my mother was helping much either she would always call me fat ass lazy ass lose wight just awful things like that. i havnt been really bullied at school. i have little self-esteem in myself and the first time i purged was when i was 12. after a few months i lost so much weight i liked it but everyone would say wow u look skinnier but in a way i looked sick. i felt good inside. my sister was the first one who confronted me about it when i was around 14 years old. it was embarrassing. im still purging the last time i purged was about 10 min ago. when i was about 15 yrs old i had stopped for couple of months but then gained 40 pounds so i started purging again. i just want to lose weight and be healthy :'(

Hi there,

Well about myself well I have suffered from bulimia on and off from 8 yrs but the last 2 months its been every day pretty much!!! I am 18 stone but at my heaviest I was 24 stone. I exercise, I have staved myself nothing seeems to work except purging and I have lost 16 pounds in 3 weeks. I know what harm it is doing to myself but  I feel sooooo much better after doing it and it means I can still eat what I like (but I do not overeat).

Any ideas how to make me stop!

Wow this is an old thread, funny how problems never change and the person they posses are the only thing changing. I've lost a lot of weight, nearly 70 pounds.. and I'm still struggling because I am still overweight, and it's been a year. I've been trying my hardest and I still can't lose the weight. I'm disgusting, no one would say it outright. My sister told me I look like I've lost "40 pounds" a few weeks ago, I can't get that out of my damn head it should feel good but it feels terrible. I'm so anxious when it comes to food because it's been hard to lose weight for a long time, so I cut my intake even more. It's so hard.. I just ate something and i'm debating with myself about purging, I feel horrible.. I normally don't eat that much and lately I've been eating so much, I hate living with family theres always so much food everywhere, and I'm too young to live alone. I work out and see no result.. so I work out harder, push myself more.. and nothing. So frustrating, here's the kick I have friends who have/are struggling with anorexia/bulimia. But it's crazy to think I know I'm struggling with bulimia and I'm over 50 pounds overweight. I tell myself I can't do this because it isn't going to change anything just make it worse.. make me still gain weight.. but it's no use. I'm awake because all i can do is supplement my hunger with caffeine, and it still doesn't work... I'm actually like one of those "I used to be fat" people, I weighed as much as one of the girls on the show about a year and a half ago, the thing is, i'm shorter, I'm still fat and I see no happy ending anymore.. I've lost hope. 

  Hello.  I guess I was surprised to see this initial post because I wasn't sure if you COULD be considered overweight and bulimic.  I've struggled with what I guess would be considered "bulimia" since the eighth grade and I am currently a freshman in college.  I don't really remember how I started, or why even.  Nobody had to tell me about it, I just figured it out on my own: that I could eat and eat and eat and then throw it up and feel good.  The thing is though, I've always been overweight.  Throughout my entire experience with this, I've never actually lost a lot of weight (until recently) or been underweight by any stretch of the imagination.  At the height of my disordered behavior, I was binging and purging upwards of 7 times a day, and I grew scared because the effects were less than pleasant.  I developed a LOT of cavities, where I had never had a cavity before in my entire life, and my throat burned and ached constantly.  I also developed ulcers and an "inexplicable" reflux problem.  I had never talked to anyone about my problem, and I was afraid to, so I decided to get myself under control.  I managed to get the purging under control, but because I didn't know what I was doing, and I was struggling with life in general, the binging continued.  Naturally, I gained loads of weight.  There was a small window of time in which I wasn't purging at ALL, but shortly after, in my desperation (and obsession) to lose weight, I began again- but sporadically, and it wasn't as big a problem as before.  I was restricting calories severely for days at a time, secretly popping diet pills, and I wrote obsessively for hours at a time in a journal about how fat I was, and just about needing to NOT eat- ever.  However, I always lost control and inevitably fell into brief periods of binging and purging again. But,  aside from the occasional indulgence in a cathartic binge/purge session, I thought that I had overcome my behaviors.  Over the past year I have lost about 60 pounds (in part because of a vegan lifestyle and more excersice, in part because of "restrictive" behavior) but towards the end of last semester, I think I began to "spiral out of control".  I'm back in a painful and desperate position and I feel like I have less control than ever over my binging and purging habits.  But, I am still classified as overweight (I weigh about 205 at 5'7.5) and I can't stop this on my own, but I think if I ask for help, anyone will just laugh in my face because I'm still fat.  How can someone as fat as me have "bulimia"?  How can someone as fat as me even DESERVE help?  I feel utterly desperate, and as this behavior grows more out of control, I can feel my health declining.  It's a big step for me to even acknowledge that I need help and I'm left feeling as if there's no such thing as help out there for someone like me.  I don't even know if I could be counted as having bulimia.  I'm much too fat, aren't I?  At any rate, while I doubt anyone will have even read this post, if you know anything about help available to people like me, I would really love to know.   I need to know.  At this point, I'm desperate.   

Hun where are you? i am in the UK but if your not here also its a bit difficult to give you info? tho I can suggest somethings. Also hun....YES you can be diagnosed as bulimic and be overweight or even obese.

Thank you for replying. I'm in the US, so I can imagine it would be quite different here than in the UK. But it helps to know that I could be legitimately diagnosed even though I'm not underweight or anything like that.

Yeah hun. its different lol. I am so sorry you are suffering but it is kind of nice to know that you can be diagnosed properly, it makes getting through this easier, otherwise we are always just questioning 'what if' I am not bulimic just idk greedy or weird ect idk.
But this way, you can get legitimate help which i hope u do hun.
x

I'm in the same situation at the moment and what. Would really like is someone to send emails or whatsapp messages anything to keep in contact and help each other. If you want to please email  

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You can die from bulimia! Look it up! You can find pics online.. Harsh but worked for me

I am 29 years old and I have been dealing with this horrible disease! I puke daily, if I eat anything like meat or sweets I throw up. In my mind its makes me sick to eat... I instanatly get sick to my stomach~ other times I will eat soooo much than throw up afterwards just to eat more food after or replace it with a healthy alternative. I am 5'2 and I am very athletic and in shape ( i range from 140- 177)...i notice that I use this disease when I get mad or if anything upsets me, i find myself feeling better after I do this, If I drink beer i will puke it up so I wont get the calorie intake from it... I realize this is a horrible thing that I am doing to myself but I cant seem to stop?... I go through Bingers that lasts for MONTHS than I will go a long while until the next time. I find my self getting anxiety from eating and than when I throw up I get even WORSE ANXIETY!!! WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME??... I even threw up during my pregnancy, so i couldnt gain any weight.. once my stomach got to big I stopped and I started feeling really guilty for the baby... I lived off veggies and pediasure. your probably thiinking this chick is sick!! but like i said its a horrible disease and I dont know what has caused this, my dentist knew and asked me if i was a puker and i answerd her really embarassed. and my parents kind of caught on when I was in high school becasue my dad would find zip lock baggies in my garbage full of vomiit. ( i learned this form a stupied movie they showed us in school about a bulemic girl who recovered) well all that movie did was show me other ways of doing it and getting away with it. My parents caught me puking in there back bathroom after every dinner we ate.. my dad asked why there was puked splattered on the walls... thats why I went to  baggies... when he found those I took up running after dinnner to go and run by a wooded area to get rid of it. I even tried not eating and all I did was eat one of those little apples that fit in the palm of your hand... I would run up to 6 miles a day and I remember almost passing out while on a run from having NO ENERGY... but I pushed myself (ick) 

I JUST KNOW THAT I NEED TO STOP THIS, AND NOW!!!!!!!!!!

(man just writting this makes me sick that I even did this) I could write a book unfortunelty but I want to spare you from the graphic details...

It doesn't work like that. but you will see soon enough. I started when i was 15. lost weight then put back on the weight.
I am 28 years old now, And I'm going to get some help. maybe, or maybe i can stop on my own starting today.;) i weigh 160 lbs height 5'4, i want to be 140lbs.