so hi im Alexandra and i have a lot of problems. I got an addiction of cutting myself and i promised my mom i would stop doing it after she found out i was cutting myself and i was clean for a few weeks but it was tought everyday i wanted to cut myself i wanted that sensation of relief so yesterday i cut myself total i have 33 cuts. Its my addiction and i love doing it.
Ever since i was 10 i convinced myself i was igly and fat and i am. I'm 5'5 and weight 122pounds i feel so fat i look at myself and just see a big flabby girl im athletic and everyon says ur so skinny but they are all lying i know it. Today i took my 1st laxative pill and im hiding the packet from my mom hopefully she doesnt find one missing. I dont feel like its working exceot occasionally i feel like vomitting. my mom and i are doing this weight loss thing its a tough workout but its not working. My parents are always judging me on what i eat i feel like yelling at them sayin im young i workout i can eat whatever and burn it off! But i think thats how this whole thing started is when my parents strted judging me nd my food.
but i just need names of diet pills and and yes i am Bulimic im not scared to say and please dont judge me
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Your young. Your beautiful, I'm sure. Please stop cutting yourself. I would really suggest seeing a doctor or calling a help line.. anybody you feel like you can trust to get yourself some help. You deserve it. Good luck.
I am in NO WAY lecturing you... I just want you to have all the facts:
ALL eating disorders will impact your metabolism.
You may see them as your only/easiest option, but you end up with a vicious cycle that can lead to multi-organ failure. The more you take these "quick" routes, the worse off your metabolism in the end. I'm not just preaching, this is physiology. Laxatives and diet pills might seem to make a difference, but the water weight will return as soon as you hydrate.
You are still young and have the opportunity to re-train your body's ability to process food and break the cycle. I promise you, if you put the effort into it, those results will be far better than any pill. I wish you the strength.