Hello,
I've been feeling so low recently. I have been diagnosed with mild depression before, about 10 years ago. I am now in my mid twenties. I should be happy, I'm getting married soon. I don't have any financial difficulties. We have our own place. I have a job...but I do hate it. I like what I do, but not the place I'm in.
I feel trapped at the moment and feel like there is no escape. I am taking things much more personal than I should, and seem to be dwelling on things much more. I seem to feel angry and irritable much easier than usual. Pretty much everyone annoys me most of the time, to the point where sometimes I will snap at them - surely it can't be everyone that is annoying....it must be my issue.
I just feel like I want to sleep to escape it all (but I can't what with work and pets, etc). I have some pretty disturbing thoughts when I feel myself getting irritable/angry. I then feel guilty for feeling that way. I can feel myself hating who I am. I do have suicidal thoughts and feel like then things would be easy and I wouldn't have to feel like this....but I wouldn't, because I couldn't do that to the people I love.
When I think back to how I felt when I was depressed before, I don't think I am that low. This is what makes me wonder, am I just stressed? On the other hand, I don't enjoy much anymore and seem to be wanting to keep myself to myself more and more! I haven't told my fiance exactly how I feel, but he knows I'm not right. I just feel embarrassed to talk about it to people who know me.
Also...probably completely irrelevant, but I have been feeling very tired, nauseous, and having palpitations recently.
Anyone's views on the situation would really help, thankyou x
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