I've been struggling with two very extreme eating disorders.. bulimia and anorexia but I'm getting better at controlling this disorder and it's pretty bomb. Haha
But.. I've been having a LOT of health problems which is very expected when you put your both through this type of hell.
I've been to many Doctors.. had an upper and lower GI, everything came back normal but.. I'm still having really bad stomach/ intestinal problems.
Aside from the starving and throwing up.. I recently had a bad problems with using laxatives. I got really back up from my intestines not being used to process food since it never got that far after I ate.. and the doctors told me to try using some laxatives.. but then I saw how they kept making me go and I abused them heavily for... about 3 - 4 months.. not smart, I know :/.
I've stopped taking them since I've read some serious horror stories about them but now.. when I eat, my lower intestines seem to "swell" or become bloated looking and it ends up staying that way. I know it's from me not going to the bathroom and I'm scared I became addicited to laxatives and now my messed up system is even MORE screwed.
I keep going to Doctors but they refuse to listen to anything I have to say once I mention the eating disorder which is expected but still D:<.
It's irritating and defeating to have this problem and not be able to find any help and I know I caused these problems for my self.. but the past 10 months have been extreme hell and I'm trying to healthy.. but these problems are scaring and depressing me.
Any help.. advice or anything you would like to say would be SO helpful <3..It's hard to find people to talk too..
But.. I've been having a LOT of health problems which is very expected when you put your both through this type of hell.
I've been to many Doctors.. had an upper and lower GI, everything came back normal but.. I'm still having really bad stomach/ intestinal problems.
Aside from the starving and throwing up.. I recently had a bad problems with using laxatives. I got really back up from my intestines not being used to process food since it never got that far after I ate.. and the doctors told me to try using some laxatives.. but then I saw how they kept making me go and I abused them heavily for... about 3 - 4 months.. not smart, I know :/.
I've stopped taking them since I've read some serious horror stories about them but now.. when I eat, my lower intestines seem to "swell" or become bloated looking and it ends up staying that way. I know it's from me not going to the bathroom and I'm scared I became addicited to laxatives and now my messed up system is even MORE screwed.
I keep going to Doctors but they refuse to listen to anything I have to say once I mention the eating disorder which is expected but still D:<.
It's irritating and defeating to have this problem and not be able to find any help and I know I caused these problems for my self.. but the past 10 months have been extreme hell and I'm trying to healthy.. but these problems are scaring and depressing me.
Any help.. advice or anything you would like to say would be SO helpful <3..It's hard to find people to talk too..
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I have to say I find your post extremely reassuring, since as I understand it, you have previously allowed yourself to starve your body, but have now resumed treating it as best you can in a rational manner. Personally, I find that heart-warming, and a source of optimism, since we read only of the disasters of young woman going downhill, with no recovery.
Indeed, I am a little shocked, that if you are now trying to stabilise your body, that doctors should be so unhelpful. It is understandable that it is frustrating talking to a girl that you know will not listen to advice, but to not take the opportunity to advise someone who for whatever reasons has turned back from the abyss seems bizarre in the extreme.
The good news is that between puberty and age 25 approximately, and diminishing somewhat either side of that, it is extremely difficult to do really permanent damage to the body, since it is extremely resilient. After twenty-five, it starts to rely on emergency-rebuilds, rather than natural growth, and before that obviously the growth is highly sensitive to proper nutrition et al.
Difficult isn't impossible though, and studies in deprivation (food, oxygen, sleep, water, etc) do illustrate the nature of the elasticity we enjoy as humans - the ability to bounce back. You might find the topic interesting, in understanding what kinds of impact food deprivation may have had.
I appreciate the difficulty of getting support, especially given your courage in coming out of the conviction that led to the starvation in the first place. One thing that I suspect many young women might relate to would be if you were willing to set your thoughts down on paper - so to speak. No other society (than western, consumer, media driven) has or has ever had these disorders, so go figure - where is the media in all this, or models, or magazines. For us as adults it causes us great pain and anguish to see beautiful children damaging themselves and their futures, because of fashion, magazines and media, but we know to our cost how difficult it is to convince someone when all around her are the adverts, the slimming pills, the media.
I would want to at least understand where you are physically in recovering to a healthy state - basically your BMI - before making any specific suggestions, but I would certainly encourage taking up as 'hobbies' a willingness to investigate, explore, and if you feel they may have merit, experience some of the alternative contributors to healthy living: acupuncture, tai chi, healing, reiki.
If your body is confused, then these may assist in un-confusing it. Frankly, putting anything 'in' your body (pharmaceuticals) right now I would suggest is just going to add to the things your body is trying to process. Modest, healthy foods, of whatever kind your body can accept, and you find youself enjoying or able to eat, and plenty of water, for the simple reason that it is fundamental to the body's operation, might seem to be a reasonable first step.
My own personal experience of life may be so far removed that I can be of little or no assistance, but I certainly am relieved to hear, if I understand it correctly - that the traffic isn't only one way, that some people do come out of it, and realise that there's no real future in starvation - sounds so simple, put that way, but then again, that's why putting your thoughts down on paper (or internet) may help others, teenagers, parents, medical professionals, understand the mindset that allows this to happen.
Indeed, I am a little shocked, that if you are now trying to stabilise your body, that doctors should be so unhelpful. It is understandable that it is frustrating talking to a girl that you know will not listen to advice, but to not take the opportunity to advise someone who for whatever reasons has turned back from the abyss seems bizarre in the extreme.
The good news is that between puberty and age 25 approximately, and diminishing somewhat either side of that, it is extremely difficult to do really permanent damage to the body, since it is extremely resilient. After twenty-five, it starts to rely on emergency-rebuilds, rather than natural growth, and before that obviously the growth is highly sensitive to proper nutrition et al.
Difficult isn't impossible though, and studies in deprivation (food, oxygen, sleep, water, etc) do illustrate the nature of the elasticity we enjoy as humans - the ability to bounce back. You might find the topic interesting, in understanding what kinds of impact food deprivation may have had.
I appreciate the difficulty of getting support, especially given your courage in coming out of the conviction that led to the starvation in the first place. One thing that I suspect many young women might relate to would be if you were willing to set your thoughts down on paper - so to speak. No other society (than western, consumer, media driven) has or has ever had these disorders, so go figure - where is the media in all this, or models, or magazines. For us as adults it causes us great pain and anguish to see beautiful children damaging themselves and their futures, because of fashion, magazines and media, but we know to our cost how difficult it is to convince someone when all around her are the adverts, the slimming pills, the media.
I would want to at least understand where you are physically in recovering to a healthy state - basically your BMI - before making any specific suggestions, but I would certainly encourage taking up as 'hobbies' a willingness to investigate, explore, and if you feel they may have merit, experience some of the alternative contributors to healthy living: acupuncture, tai chi, healing, reiki.
If your body is confused, then these may assist in un-confusing it. Frankly, putting anything 'in' your body (pharmaceuticals) right now I would suggest is just going to add to the things your body is trying to process. Modest, healthy foods, of whatever kind your body can accept, and you find youself enjoying or able to eat, and plenty of water, for the simple reason that it is fundamental to the body's operation, might seem to be a reasonable first step.
My own personal experience of life may be so far removed that I can be of little or no assistance, but I certainly am relieved to hear, if I understand it correctly - that the traffic isn't only one way, that some people do come out of it, and realise that there's no real future in starvation - sounds so simple, put that way, but then again, that's why putting your thoughts down on paper (or internet) may help others, teenagers, parents, medical professionals, understand the mindset that allows this to happen.
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