Behavior and love[help]

Hey, I am Matt,and 15 yo. I had a cavernoma removed from my brain stem when I was 12. I was pretty much a vegetible after that, but now I am physically built; however, I have a bit lack in accuracy in motor gfunctions and I dont walk perfect (ussually around congested/packed areas).

This is the first time Im actually acknowledging my problem to people.

I take a sleep aid and a behavioral drug, zoloff. I still have anxiety attacks and i feel anti-socioal, but i want to be socialable. But, I refuse to take drugs that may effect my brain function. I sometimes tearup, when talking to an un charasmatic superior. (childish?)
What do you guys suggest?

Also, this is kinda weird but I like sex (masturbation =() Do yo think because of walking and eveerything,I wont be able to get a gf? If, legally, i cant walk by myself in school, how do you suggest I attempt to approach?

What is the likelihood that a girl with me, will like to express love?