Hello,
Can someone please guide me down the right path, here's my story.
Ok I met this girl and I never in my life fell for a girl this fast, when we first started talking things were on a rollercoaster of great then very rough.
But I know sex isn't everything to her but at the same time it's very important (to me as well).
Before we met I had a random chick who was just a late night call and I would get hard from just thinking about shoving my .... in her mouth. (I used rough terms because it'll tie in to the story).
When I think like this about a random chick I instantly get a full stiffy.
I haven't been in a relationship or been this crazy about someone since 2004, from then until 2012 I've only dealt with booty calls. Any girl could tell you I'm not at all the settle down type and girls have tried over the years.
But this girl somehow did it and have me crazy into her.
**Problem starts here**
She came over to hang out for the first time and we began making out and I started performing oral on her, the whole time I was erect but as soon as she began on me, I started to lose the mood. I know exactly what the problem is. I freaking like this girl so much, that thought's of having sex and her sucking me makes me think (Hell No, she's not a w****). But I want to make love to her and show her that I'm very skilled at sex and size is not a matter with me. I'm 8, 9 if I'm really into it. But with her I can only get hard enough to reach around 7 =(
The 2nd time she came over we started again and I tried to think of things like (She's a w**** f**k her, f**k her hard). But then I smell her scent and look in her face and think (I love this girl). And what do you know, sex goes out of my head. I want to share this experience with her soooo bad but I have to find a way to get use to her being around me.
I don't want to lose this girl and I know once we make it through that first time, I'll be able to give her what she wants. It sucks because I know we are a great match and I enjoy sex so much that I know I'll please her. But I have to find a way to get the thoughts right.
Can someone please help me.
The whole (Relax and calm down) c**p I read does not help me at all. Soon as she text me or comes over I can feel butterflies in my stomach. I can I like this girl because I feel like a little b*tch when she comes around me (But I'm not).
I read a few things that let me know this is beyond normal, It was the same with 2 of my friends and everything I read online about girls saying the guys who are now their husbands had the same problems when they first started. I wish she could she I just really need to get use to her and reach the level of having sex with her. Guys she's sooooooooo beautiful and a loving person. I would go crazy if I lose this girl. She means so much to me that I even pray and ask for forgiveness for the way I treated previous girls. I guess this is my Karma. I just want her to work with me and not be upset at me, please help me hold on to her. Sex isn't everything but honestly, no one will stick around if the guy can't please her.
These are NOT the problems:
1- Size (I'm 8, 9 if I'm maxed)
2 - Not Uncomfortable with my body
3 - Don't have a broken penis (I get random boners through out the day that just stands up hard)
4 - Work out and eat right (I work out not a lot but often and I love fruits and veggies)
I just want to please her and take her out of this world, I love to please a girl and now I meet one I'm crazy about and I can't do it =( What in the hell!!!
Ps. I'm black and she's white, she's also the first white girl I ever fell in love with.
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