Hi everyone hope you're doing well, 

5 days ago I was smoking a joint with a few mates, not something that I do often probably every now and then. 

This time I was feeling anxious about doing weed as it is a very sinful thing to do in my religion, going on i had about 8-12 puffs in total, 5 minutes in I started feeling very weird as if I didn't exist and that I didn't feel real, thought I was dying that just freaked me out I panicked so bad I told my friend to drive me to the nearest hospital and just leave me there, he said no you will be fine just relax I was going through this bad trip in the car for 2 hours straight I got home I don't even know how I got in felt like I was in a dream.

i woke up next morning feeling weird I couldn't talk to anybody because I was still trying to process what happened the night before I couldn't remember much to be honest but still knew had the biggest trip of my lifeeee! 

Since that day, I've been trying to keep a positive vibe going to the swimming pools, spending time with mates and family. the first 2 days I thought I didn't exist 24/7, now I zone for maybe 2 seconds and think I don't exist then I remind myself that I do, I'm not anxious about the bad trip, I haven't had a panic attack since that day I actually forced myself to get out of the house and go for a coffee with my mates and I was actually talking with them and having a laugh but I wasn't all there! I want to snap out of this please tell me helpful tips, I've searched up online all those days and i came across posts that people have had this for 20+ years I can't even imagine myself coping with this for that long.

im kind of use to the feeling now it doesn't scare as much as the first day, but I feel about 20% fear overall I just hope I can get out of this weird feeling and get on my with studies :)