Anxiety, embarrasement after a night of drinking.

Don't jump... Don't do anything right now. With a hang-over and what your body is physically going through you cannot think clearly. I can completely understand what you are going through.. the amount of times I have literally 'just wanted to die'.

The falling over thing in front of mates is not so bad, I am sure they all have a story to tell and if they can't empathise and understand your situation then that is their problem. Regarding the guy... that is a toughy.. being found looking like a zombie from evil dead surrounded by vomit is generally not a 'playboy-esque' type of look! Was he out with you the night before? If so, then he shouldn't have been too surprised... these things happen! Why did you break up? Has it got anything to do with drinking?

Anyway, just remember... have there been other times when you felt like you just wanted the world to swallow you up? Remember those times and how they don't seem so important now... this time WILL eventually feel like that!

Don't know if that helps much...but Sheesh...have you seen those Jersey shore shows and stuff? Now those people have serious issues and they do it on tele! Your mistake is nothing! Unless...was there a film crew there? :)

Thank you for replying and trying to help me feel better. No he wasn't with me that night but he knew that I was out and having fun. He has a key to my door, when he came off night shift, there I was. I would just like to crawl under a rock and cry. Now I haven'theard from him all day and it's probably because he is disgusted with me. We broke up because he had some things to deal with from a past relationship. He was just starting to come back to me gradually. And now this? I can't believe it. Do you think he will just suck it up and not think about it again? I'm so upset, I'm just here in a stupor, I just have to go lie down and die. If it was me, and I found him like that, I would help him. I wouldn't let it affect how I felt for him one bit. Tell me that it will be ok.

I think it will be.. as you said, if it was the other way around.,, What did he say when he came over? he probably hasn't called because he only saw you this morning and is doing stuff. It always seems so much worse when its just you alone feeling like c**p hey? The minutes seem like hours and we analyse every little thing, beating ourselves up into a bloody pulp of abused emotion (kinda like a squashed cabbage leaf) When you do speak you'll probably just laugh about it.. he's probably laughing about it now... telling everyone and they are all laughing at you too..I AM KIDDING! I would imagine that a hang-over and a bit of vomit isn't any sort of deal breaker babe... and thats all it is...I know it seems so much more at the moment... but really...its just a hangover and a bit of vomit xx

:) I like your way of thinking. He was very nice about it, he laughed at first when he saw me and then he took it upon himself to get out the soap and water and towels and he cleaned up the whole thing. Then he sat down and we chatted for an hour or so, not bringing it up again. Yes I am beating myself up over it. One stupid mistake and it made me look like an id**t. Normally I don't do anything or go anywhere so it is out of character. All I can say is never again. Also, if he stays away now becuase of that, it makes him very shallow and superficial. If he barfed ON me I wouldn't think anything of it.

That's my girl! There you go... it's all ok.. you probably looked really cute all messy, pathetic and sore .. and if he laughed, cleaned and didn't run out the door screaming 'oh my god..it's horrible...my eyes...my eyes!' then that can only be a good thing...

Oh my I do hope you're right.  He's a real sweetheart, the kindest of men.  I'm still very ashamed and embarrased.  It doesn't leave my mind.  No he didn't go running out the door, he stayed for a while and talked about other things.  During the rest of the day I got some texts from him too.  However nothing today.  It makes me very sad.  :(

Thank you for talking with me about it tho.  I'm real down on myself.