I tried to commit suicide VUA a drug overdose this time last year and they refered me to a psychiatrist to give me meds in the ST and therapy in the LT considering theres an 18 month waiting list...
Well hes had trouble figuring out whats wrong with me. From depression to a type of bipolar to mild depression, to sever depression, to rapid cycling disorder to a personality disorder to cyclothemia to Discharged.
He discharged me.
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I started crying i guess I felt abandoned even though I know its jsut his job and all. Plus after trying Fluoxetine, Mirtizapine, Duloxetine, and something else I forgot they figured drugs dont work on me besides good old fluoxetine which ignored my depression but made me somewhat hypomanic.
He gave me a number for a psychologist. I still have yet to ring them I should sleep as I have my last exam tomorrow...
but yeah before I go, The chances of me still beign on the waiting list I've supposed to be on since the overdose last year are low right? because I'm not seeing that psychiatrist anymore, so fdo you think they took me off? I dont wanna have to wait for it again. it's not nice getting to that point over and over. I dont think they understand but for me I actually die each time. just because I'm still breathing. it's barely me afterwards and the recovering is not me rediscovering my thirst for life its me discovering the new me inside thats taking over and the on going low key depression i have day to day is like that me mourning the death of the original me's (more than one obviously).
Anyone else understand that. And anyone else tried Primary care psychologists? They any good? i'll ring them after my exam. if they arent open ill probably cry again. I cry so randomly its annoying. even if i feel great. I hate depression or whatever the hell Ive got. And i know its not a personality thing.
Well hes had trouble figuring out whats wrong with me. From depression to a type of bipolar to mild depression, to sever depression, to rapid cycling disorder to a personality disorder to cyclothemia to Discharged.
He discharged me.
=[
I started crying i guess I felt abandoned even though I know its jsut his job and all. Plus after trying Fluoxetine, Mirtizapine, Duloxetine, and something else I forgot they figured drugs dont work on me besides good old fluoxetine which ignored my depression but made me somewhat hypomanic.
He gave me a number for a psychologist. I still have yet to ring them I should sleep as I have my last exam tomorrow...
but yeah before I go, The chances of me still beign on the waiting list I've supposed to be on since the overdose last year are low right? because I'm not seeing that psychiatrist anymore, so fdo you think they took me off? I dont wanna have to wait for it again. it's not nice getting to that point over and over. I dont think they understand but for me I actually die each time. just because I'm still breathing. it's barely me afterwards and the recovering is not me rediscovering my thirst for life its me discovering the new me inside thats taking over and the on going low key depression i have day to day is like that me mourning the death of the original me's (more than one obviously).
Anyone else understand that. And anyone else tried Primary care psychologists? They any good? i'll ring them after my exam. if they arent open ill probably cry again. I cry so randomly its annoying. even if i feel great. I hate depression or whatever the hell Ive got. And i know its not a personality thing.
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