OK, I am 15 years old and I cannot feel my emotions very well. It is like they are dying and will soon be gone. Even when I cry, I cannot feel distressed or anything, I hate crying, sometime I do it on random things. I know for a fact that this isn't got anything to do with mood swings or hormones. I'm trying to figure out what is causing it, but there is no anwser, i remeber I woke up when I was 11 and I could barely - just barely feel them, there was no 'what the hell?' or anything alike to that, I am a calm person, and I am calm in all problems. I remeber when my besy friend got hit by a car and she came to school and told me about it, I just couldn't seem to feel anything. I bottle up my emotions, because I am not the type to show my emotions (and I don't plan to) and now, there is nothing, I suffered from depression a copule of years back but it is gone and I am yet still the same. I don't even have the desire to want to have sex (or think) about it, not even masterbate. What is wrong with me? I think I may end up this way from the rest of my life. Anyone else who can help me? I've tried heaps of things, medication, therpist, groups, looking it up, ect. Maybe my heart was ripped out to keep my emotions from getting in the way of things...I don't know. Could use some help here, this is my last chance.
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There are several things that would be helpful if you'd clarify them in a little more detail. First of them - you are 15, yet you say you suffered from depression a couple of years ago. How was depression manifested then? I assume your parents were the ones who assumed something is going on back then, so they took you to a children psychologist? And what kind of medications were you given? Even though you disclaimed hormones (ok, I don't think that is simple as that as well), it is very possible that, depending on the type of the depression and it's way of showing than, the puberty might have brought it back, but as if it was with vengeance. You probably know yourself that puberty brings turbulence to the very core of your personality because it rearranges during these few years while you are becoming an adult. So any "dark spot" can get even more enhanced and cause you to feel the way you do.
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I know how you feel, the same thing is sorta going on with me but not as strong. My uncle just died and i didn't even feel sad let alone cry, i had to force the emotions out. I'm only 13 but ive gone through depression as well and I just don't like to show my emotions. it makes me feel weak and like im letting out some type of secrect %-). I dont get exicited over things like Christmas or my birthday, it seems like im just waiting for it all to pass and step into the future... the really far away future. And i dont really like to talk to people.... they kinda annoy me XD .
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I have the same problem in fact sometimes I feel truly dead inside but what usually helps me is to do something I truly enjoy or I talk to my therapist
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