I've been diagnosed with depression and anxiety for about a year now, I'm 16 and currently taking 60 grams of Fluoxitine. It has been helping me out but ever since I got on birth control as well, my anxiety has been rising, I've been getting dizzy waves more often, and I've been having a lot of paranoid tendancies, such as mostly worrying too much about people leaving  and not coming back or being killed while out. I've had some childhood trauma and can't remember much of my past and such,  and I just want more than anything for all this to stop and go away. I've failed several times at killing myself, and I kind of gave up on that part. I want to move on with my life as soon as possible, but I have a busy family who isn't willing to be around enough to help me stay on track.

I just need some help calming my paranoia, maybe getting rid of my dizzy waves, and lessen my anxiety. It's all just too much for me to handle on top of highschool. I really need someone's serious help. I was abused by my dad, drugged by his girlfriend, went into foster care, more issues with my dad, not to mention mental illness is common on his side. I've had a bit of an unstable relationship with my mom and step dad, I haven't been able to hold friends down due to all my mental issues, and I've been severely bullied in the past. I've been thinking a therapy dog might help me a bit, but I'm not sure if I'm even well enough to take care of that. My family is almost never home, and I'm alone most of the time. I have no friends to hang out with and our current pets ignore me. My mom and step dad are also going on a vacation close to the end of February, and I'm scared to be left on my own for so long, and for them to go so far. Help me please...