Has anyone ever had an unfounded, overwhelming fear of contracting an STD? How did it affect you? Did you have any symptoms that freaked you out?
Here is my fear for anyone who cares to read.
For the last two months I have had this overwhelming fear of genital herpes. I've only been with one guy. We were together for three years, broke up, he told me he hooked up with two other girls before we hooked up again. He told me before, during, and after that he did not have herpes. We used a condom and he would definitely have used a condom with the other girls. Since I was already paranoid (a couple days earlier I just decided I had a fear of herpes..) I made sure there was little contact outside the condom but we had about 15-30 seconds of bumping where the condom doesn't cover. I asked several times about STD's and he made no attempt to hide anything. He has another condition (not sexually transmitted) that has him getting check ups in that area every couple months. To this day he still says he has nothing and for all I know he may have lied about hooking up with other girls thus even making getting herpes even less likely. I haven't had any symptoms typical of herpes. I had a pap and expressed my concerns to two of my doctors and they both said chances were extremely slim and not to worry. I will request a blood test tomorrow (eight months) later just because I am so freaked out. I think part of the reason I feel like this is because I generally regret sleeping with him.
Here is my fear for anyone who cares to read.
For the last two months I have had this overwhelming fear of genital herpes. I've only been with one guy. We were together for three years, broke up, he told me he hooked up with two other girls before we hooked up again. He told me before, during, and after that he did not have herpes. We used a condom and he would definitely have used a condom with the other girls. Since I was already paranoid (a couple days earlier I just decided I had a fear of herpes..) I made sure there was little contact outside the condom but we had about 15-30 seconds of bumping where the condom doesn't cover. I asked several times about STD's and he made no attempt to hide anything. He has another condition (not sexually transmitted) that has him getting check ups in that area every couple months. To this day he still says he has nothing and for all I know he may have lied about hooking up with other girls thus even making getting herpes even less likely. I haven't had any symptoms typical of herpes. I had a pap and expressed my concerns to two of my doctors and they both said chances were extremely slim and not to worry. I will request a blood test tomorrow (eight months) later just because I am so freaked out. I think part of the reason I feel like this is because I generally regret sleeping with him.
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I think your last sentence is extremely telling.
You appear to be trying to punish yourself, even though you two used precautions, AND you have ask TWO medical doctors about this and been told how unlikely it is.
Why do you continue to seek to punish yourself in this area? Think about this and maybe speak with a counselor.
You appear to be trying to punish yourself, even though you two used precautions, AND you have ask TWO medical doctors about this and been told how unlikely it is.
Why do you continue to seek to punish yourself in this area? Think about this and maybe speak with a counselor.
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