I am not well. I have been feeling really weird this past while and i think it will never pass. I have had strange episodes all my life really but this one is the worst. I feel like i am going to forget myself and everything around me, i get scared to look at my children incase i forget who they are. I feel really detatched from reality . I have been getting headaches that will not go away and i also have a horrible feeling of weakness in my left hand side. I do feel paniky and shaky my vision feels not great and i feel dizzy. I feel like i dont recognise my own voice and feel like i dont know anyone anymore. Sometimes i think if i didnt pay attention i could easliy forget everything.
I have been getting focal migraines since i was 13 and wondered if this was anything to do with it. i have had an mri scan which appeared normal.
I dont know if i am lacking some vital vitamin or something like that or if i am in denial that i have a serious mental problem. I live in fear everyday and dont feel like anyone could ever imagine what i feel like . I cant imagine living the rest of my life like this. I dont want to scare my children, i dont want them taken away from me.
As I write this i feel my left hand like it is not mine, i have a headache on the right hand side and i feel myself shaking inside, my tongue feels like its big and sluglike and i am always clentching my jaw.
These are the things i ask myself. Am i dying of something that destroys your brain slowy like mad cow disease, Do i have schitzophrenia or some other mental illness, is this some weird long migraine, have i had a mini stroke, will i then have a big stroke and die, do i have a tumor, are my tooth fillings poisioning me , can anyone help me???