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-J
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@ jt I know exactly how you feel being out of control of your own body is probably one of the scariest things to have happen to you. I will always be an "alcoholic " but I plan on never drinking again. Seizures can kill you, and if I was alone that last time I may have choked on my own vomit and died! That alone keeps me away (along with the other withdrawal symptoms). Best of luck to you, and anytime you think you want a drink think of that seizure you had while driving. You could of killed yourself and others :( at such a young age, its so not worth it.
@ sister thanks for your kind words
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You can find the strength to stop and please find a support group. The best to you.
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50 year old here on day 4 of cold turkey. After coming off of a week-long bender over vacation July 4th week, where I made a fool of myself (again) in front of friends and family, I decided that this had to stop. Damn it’s hard. I am doing this while my wife remains out of town for the next three weeks, so she doesn’t have to endure my sweat-filled, thrashing, sleepless nights and moodiness/irritability. I am hoping to present her and my grown son with a sober husband/father when I see them again. I have a constant headache, high blood pressure, dizziness, palpitations, diarrhea, and depression. If I manage to fall asleep I wake up soaking wet. I have also seen things out of the corner of my eye that I suppose would qualify as hallucinations. At first I thought I had a heart condition so saw a cardiologist. My ticker checked out fine, but I did have high BP so he prescribed a beta blocker. I should have known that these symptoms were booze related since they go away when I drink. Like many here, I began drinking early in life at about 14-15. It felt good and made me cooler at the time. I had a grand old time flunking out of a very good college because I drank so much. Through it all I managed to quit for about three years when my kids were in high school so that 1. We had no alcohol in the house they could indulge in and 2. I could smell any booze on them at this vulnerable time. Began drinking again after a trip to Vegas. It didn’t stay in Vegas. Of course, “just a couple of beers” graduated into a half bottle of vodka a night. This time it is harder. At any rate, this site is great help. Misery loves company or something. Wish me luck and good luck and congrats to the rest of folks here.
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I am 47, a former elite athlete who is still in good shape. I would describe myself as a "functioning-alcoholic". I have great loving family and friends, a successful career, respect in the community, etc. So, I have been able to hold it together but the hard fact I am finally beginning to face is I drank too much and risked it all falling apart. I would average about 35 drinks a week and drink 5-7 days a week, usually "binging" on the weekends.
My low moment came on July 4th. Played golf with some great friends that I don't see often, had some beers on the course followed by a couple of mixed drinks in the clubhouse after. I then met my wife and kids at a friend's house for a BBQ and more drinks followed by the fireworks and more drinks. Long story short it was an all day bender the last part unfolding in front of my kids who are now old enough to know. While I didn't do anything stupid I was slurring my words, was inconsiderate (I, of course, assumed my wife would drive us home), and generally a mess. When we got home my wife basically sent me to my room (as if I was the kid) so I could pass out without the kids seeing any more (yes, she is an angel). HOWEVER, a funny thing happened toward the end of the night. I don't know what to call it but I kind of had an "out of body experience" where I kind of saw myself in my drunken state and was disgusted. It was as if I had a consciousness of what was going on and was able to look at what I was and what I was becoming and was really bummed out about it. Alcohol was starting to take control of my very fortunate life (not to mention affecting my loved ones) and it sucked.
That was 8 days ago and I haven't had a drink since. Like others on this thread I have had trouble sleeping, anxiety, mild depression, and lack of energy...especially for the first week. Last night I took a couple of melatonin to help with the sleep (which they did) and today I woke up feeling better than I have in some time. My mind is clear my body is strong and, with the help of people on this thread, I am optimistic about my sobriety.
My formula is as follows:
1) Think about the bigger picture (whatever that means to you: could be loved ones, career, faith, education, finances, etc.) and how alcohol is adversely affecting your life.
2) Eat well.
3) Exercise.
4) Sleep well.
5) Keep yourself occupied during "drinking time" (take up a new hobby that enriches your life)
6) Stay strong and know that everyone on this thread is with you in this journey.
Thanks again to all.
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hearts can only be changed by the power of The Lord Jesus.
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It is not worth the end result..the best to you
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