sorry i am new to this... so i dont know if i am doing it right...
but ever since i was little i have had thoughts of hurting/ killing people whom i love and care for... and i feel like this thought will take over and ill do it not knowing im doing it... and it really disturbs me i just want to feel normal and love my daughter... and not have really intense thoughts and vived thoughts of hurting her or my animals... i'm not sure if its part of my disorders i have borderline personaility and anxiety and manic deppression... also now ppd. i feel like im losing my mind sometimes.. i dont want to feel this way anymore. i take pills for anxiety and depression... it only helps take the edge off and not think of doing that as often but it still pops up sometimes during the day. any help?
but ever since i was little i have had thoughts of hurting/ killing people whom i love and care for... and i feel like this thought will take over and ill do it not knowing im doing it... and it really disturbs me i just want to feel normal and love my daughter... and not have really intense thoughts and vived thoughts of hurting her or my animals... i'm not sure if its part of my disorders i have borderline personaility and anxiety and manic deppression... also now ppd. i feel like im losing my mind sometimes.. i dont want to feel this way anymore. i take pills for anxiety and depression... it only helps take the edge off and not think of doing that as often but it still pops up sometimes during the day. any help?
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you poor thing, you would never do that or hurt your child would you? maybe you should talk to your doctor maybe you need different meds. I have bipolar depression and I had simular thoughts. I would never do anything to even hurt anyone. Maybe you could check yourself into a hospital and tell them this so they can maybe get you on the right path. How old is your daughter? my daughter was killed at three and I suffer everyday without her.I hope this helps and if you need to talk write me.
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oh my gosh i am sorry!!!! and no as much as i think this way i wouldnt hurt her. even tho they are detailed vivid thoughts
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I know your little girl is just two and a half months old. I know that you suffer from ppd and anxiety, and i also know that you got a hold of some bad weed that make you trip out. I know that your stuck in the house from morning until night with your baby, and i know that you are very tired and overwhelmed with being a new mom.
You made the first move by coming here and telling us your story, now you must get professional help.
The second you tell your doctor or a counselor that you have thoughts of hurting your baby, help will come flying out of the wood work.
We hear so much in the media about moms that did hurtful things to their children, no one wants to step in until it's to late. It is up to you to bring this information to someone's (other than us) attention.
Choose a close family member to care for your baby, then take them with you to talk to a professional. It's always comforting to have someone close and at your side when one has to announce that they have a serious problem.
A very dear friend of mine suffers from the same stuff you do and her doctor put her on Lithium, she is a totally different person today.
Do this for yourself so that your little girl will have her mommy, whole and loving. Ppd can be overwhelming and scarey and many sufferers don't even realize what they are doing until the damage is done. Please get yourself some help, the sooner the better.
You made the first move by coming here and telling us your story, now you must get professional help.
The second you tell your doctor or a counselor that you have thoughts of hurting your baby, help will come flying out of the wood work.
We hear so much in the media about moms that did hurtful things to their children, no one wants to step in until it's to late. It is up to you to bring this information to someone's (other than us) attention.
Choose a close family member to care for your baby, then take them with you to talk to a professional. It's always comforting to have someone close and at your side when one has to announce that they have a serious problem.
A very dear friend of mine suffers from the same stuff you do and her doctor put her on Lithium, she is a totally different person today.
Do this for yourself so that your little girl will have her mommy, whole and loving. Ppd can be overwhelming and scarey and many sufferers don't even realize what they are doing until the damage is done. Please get yourself some help, the sooner the better.
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