Sir,
i am 20 years old girl.now i am doing my 3rd semester computer engineering.i am from a happy family.my parents love me very much.i also love them.from the schooldays,i was very studious and got very good marks in my exams.but now i am not like that.i have got many prizes in extracarricular activities and for my studies.i have scored 95% marks in school education.from my childhood,iwas very ambitious.but now i feel, i become very lazy and i cant find any enthusiasm in my studies.
In my tenth class,i loved my classmate.he also loved me.i discussed about this with my mother because she is my best friend.then she didnt like this relation and discouraged me.then i told my lover that i had some probelms and i couldnt love you.he said nothing and he was ready to forget me.but this was not the case with me.even i said to him 'no', iloved him.i was very talented.then my teachers expected me alot.they thought i would get a rank in tenth class.but unfortunately,i lost the rank for 5 marks.it was a grate failure in my life.then i thought,failure is stepping stone to success.i again determinded to fight against the problems in the life.i worked hard.but my affair with my classmate deviate my studies.i spent my tme to think about him.eventhough i know much about the responsibilities to my family,i forgot to work hard.but at the same time,that boy had completly forgotten me.i understood that fact at the end of my schooldays.time didnt wait for me.i got very poor result in entrance examination for engineering.my classmates got admission in very good engineering college.but i got an adimission for my favourite branch eventhough i ws deserving more than this.i have very strong beleif in god.i use to pray evryday or evry moment.i think ,god leds me.so i wont get indulge in bad gang.unfortunately,the problems didnt stop to follow me.i completely forgot about my classmate whom i liked.i realised that it was not"the love" and it was only an "infatuation " due to my age.after joining my engineering college,i met a friend.he was my senior.he liked me so much.i also love him.that relation grew and now i feel that i cant live without him.i know ,he is very sincere to me and like me so much.i love him as my god.i found my teacher,my brother ,my friend and my husband in him.i dont know whether it is right or not.he uses to call me evryday.he calls me 4 or 5 times in a day.during our phone calls,he tells me to imagine he is lying with me and kissing me.oneday he asked me to show my bellybutton to him.since he is not near me.i took a photo in which my belly is shown and send him.in our culture,it was a big wrong to show a girl's inner parts to somebody else bofore marriage.i am coming from such an orthodox family.eventhough,my mother is my best friend,i didnt discuss anything about him to my mother.upto 12 th standard,i used to read 8 to 9 hours per day.i was very hard working and studious.my hobby was studying.my ambition was to become a scientist.but now i become very very lazy.i dont read anything or study anything.i feel borig while studying.upto 12th standard i couldnt imagine to score marks less than 90%..do u know,i wrote the last university exam without reading single page in the text book.results hasnt come.i am sure i will fail in atleast 4 subjects out of 12 subjects.i dont know y i become so lazy.eventhough i know to improve myself,i cant do it.i want some extra energy from somewhere.can u give it?i am sure about that i am very talented bcause i have proved it during my schooldays.but i cant find the reason y i dont feel to study.i cant concentrate much in the reading.now i like to sleep wholetime.
lastyear i started to see sex movies.i think,it has influenced my studies.how can i free from such ugly thoughts?i was not likethat.in my dreams,i saw only studies.but now i dont have any such dreams.i am feeling alone.even my eating habits are changed.now i use to eat a lot more.before starting my problems,i used to sleep only 6 hour in a day and i could utilise the remaining time for my research.but now,i am sleeping for 12 to 14 hours a day.i lost my energy and feeling that i am tired .what do i do to improve my mental strength and become successuful in my life.eventhough god gave me alot of capabilities ,now i am destroying them.how can i escape from my guilty situation.now i feel i am guilty.every person aronuds me respects me as a very good student.but now i am feeling that i am cheating my parents.,my teachers my friends and this society.i dont know how i can escape from this trap.i dont know what makes me this much lazy and ugly.what will i do?please help me.sometimes your answer will escape a girl's life from the darkness of sin.please help me soon.help me soonnnnnnnnn
please send your kind reply to me as soon as possible.it will help a gril's life.
i am waiting your kind reply
i am 20 years old girl.now i am doing my 3rd semester computer engineering.i am from a happy family.my parents love me very much.i also love them.from the schooldays,i was very studious and got very good marks in my exams.but now i am not like that.i have got many prizes in extracarricular activities and for my studies.i have scored 95% marks in school education.from my childhood,iwas very ambitious.but now i feel, i become very lazy and i cant find any enthusiasm in my studies.
In my tenth class,i loved my classmate.he also loved me.i discussed about this with my mother because she is my best friend.then she didnt like this relation and discouraged me.then i told my lover that i had some probelms and i couldnt love you.he said nothing and he was ready to forget me.but this was not the case with me.even i said to him 'no', iloved him.i was very talented.then my teachers expected me alot.they thought i would get a rank in tenth class.but unfortunately,i lost the rank for 5 marks.it was a grate failure in my life.then i thought,failure is stepping stone to success.i again determinded to fight against the problems in the life.i worked hard.but my affair with my classmate deviate my studies.i spent my tme to think about him.eventhough i know much about the responsibilities to my family,i forgot to work hard.but at the same time,that boy had completly forgotten me.i understood that fact at the end of my schooldays.time didnt wait for me.i got very poor result in entrance examination for engineering.my classmates got admission in very good engineering college.but i got an adimission for my favourite branch eventhough i ws deserving more than this.i have very strong beleif in god.i use to pray evryday or evry moment.i think ,god leds me.so i wont get indulge in bad gang.unfortunately,the problems didnt stop to follow me.i completely forgot about my classmate whom i liked.i realised that it was not"the love" and it was only an "infatuation " due to my age.after joining my engineering college,i met a friend.he was my senior.he liked me so much.i also love him.that relation grew and now i feel that i cant live without him.i know ,he is very sincere to me and like me so much.i love him as my god.i found my teacher,my brother ,my friend and my husband in him.i dont know whether it is right or not.he uses to call me evryday.he calls me 4 or 5 times in a day.during our phone calls,he tells me to imagine he is lying with me and kissing me.oneday he asked me to show my bellybutton to him.since he is not near me.i took a photo in which my belly is shown and send him.in our culture,it was a big wrong to show a girl's inner parts to somebody else bofore marriage.i am coming from such an orthodox family.eventhough,my mother is my best friend,i didnt discuss anything about him to my mother.upto 12 th standard,i used to read 8 to 9 hours per day.i was very hard working and studious.my hobby was studying.my ambition was to become a scientist.but now i become very very lazy.i dont read anything or study anything.i feel borig while studying.upto 12th standard i couldnt imagine to score marks less than 90%..do u know,i wrote the last university exam without reading single page in the text book.results hasnt come.i am sure i will fail in atleast 4 subjects out of 12 subjects.i dont know y i become so lazy.eventhough i know to improve myself,i cant do it.i want some extra energy from somewhere.can u give it?i am sure about that i am very talented bcause i have proved it during my schooldays.but i cant find the reason y i dont feel to study.i cant concentrate much in the reading.now i like to sleep wholetime.
lastyear i started to see sex movies.i think,it has influenced my studies.how can i free from such ugly thoughts?i was not likethat.in my dreams,i saw only studies.but now i dont have any such dreams.i am feeling alone.even my eating habits are changed.now i use to eat a lot more.before starting my problems,i used to sleep only 6 hour in a day and i could utilise the remaining time for my research.but now,i am sleeping for 12 to 14 hours a day.i lost my energy and feeling that i am tired .what do i do to improve my mental strength and become successuful in my life.eventhough god gave me alot of capabilities ,now i am destroying them.how can i escape from my guilty situation.now i feel i am guilty.every person aronuds me respects me as a very good student.but now i am feeling that i am cheating my parents.,my teachers my friends and this society.i dont know how i can escape from this trap.i dont know what makes me this much lazy and ugly.what will i do?please help me.sometimes your answer will escape a girl's life from the darkness of sin.please help me soon.help me soonnnnnnnnn
please send your kind reply to me as soon as possible.it will help a gril's life.
i am waiting your kind reply
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