Nearly 4 years ago I had this bad anxiety spell where I couldnt function normally, I didn't want to leave my house basically. This lasted for about 2 months until my anti depressant pills kicked in. I've never been on them before this but had thought prior, when I moved cities that me moving away was giving me such anxiety I needed to be on something but was to ashamed to see a doctor. I took the pills for about 7 months and felt I was back to about 80% of my old self so decided to stop taking them. After about 2 months the anxiety crept back up and got really bad again but being my quiet self never spoke up and just toughed it out and things s l o w l y got better. I still feel like I'm in this trap where I can't leave my job for fears my anxiety will get bad again like debilitatingly bad so I stick at my mundane job. I think about getting back on the pills all the time but am too shy to go and ask the doctors and fear I'll have to be on them forever and I want kids but dont think it's safe to be on them while pregnant?? Argh and some of my anxiety stems from going red when I'm embarrassed. Any advice would be appreciated. Thanks