I'm terrified of sex and intimacy. I can't break down that wall. The issue isn't that. I could be a happy loner. I'm in a long term relationship. We started out as more strings attached, then feelings. We've been together for two years, looking for a place of our own. It started getting bad last year where I was on some medication that screwed with my sex drive. I came off it and it came back... But then it went. He got frustrated. I got frustrated. Bottom line is now... I'm self conscious,I don't want to take my clothes off. I don't want to be touched. It's not a case of being unattracted. Watching TV shows I get so uncomfortable when the characters kiss or show affection, I don't want to be kissed. It's so horrible. My depression is draining me and I can't even turn to him because ALL HE EVER TALKS ABOUT IS HOW sh*t OUR SEX LIFE IS! I've reapplied into therapy. I asked him one thing, please don't talk about it until I come to you and he has spent ALL DAY fondling my tits and commenting every time I get changed. To add. I have anxiety, depression, and episodes of paranoia... I don't know what to do. I know my head is a major issue... But I can't fight it,it is me. Just knowing it's all mental issues doesn't help!! I need help. It's tearing me apart all the time it tears us apart. I just want to feel like a normal human being again. Help.