really really bad marijuana anxiety, or post traumatic stres

i smoked once in a while in high school, never really got high.

smoked in college a bit, got sorta high.

this year around april-ish... started smoking a SHITLOAD.

got really high ALL the time.

everything was amazing, i had the BEST highs! i was so happy..

then in the summer, it all went downhill.

i started getting these weird feelings that every time i said something, i pissed someone off. every time i would talk, i felt like people started to hate me and think i was so weird.

then i started BUGGING OUT.

very close relatives of mine died in a horrific fiery car accident last year. i didn't deal with it too good, but i never got upset about it while i was high.. infact, it made me forget about it!

but in this past summer... all i would do was hallucinate about it, play it over and over in my head.. imagine other close relatives/friends dying in horrible ways... i'd hear their screams, i'd see it happening.. it was absolutely TERRIBLE... just torture.

then this all started happening even when i WASN'T high. i would be sober and think about it! every time someone leaves for work/school i go through every bad situation that could happen on the way there... while they're there.. on the way back.

i used to be the fun, confident life of the party... now i never talk or say anything because i feel like every little thing i do and say pisses people off or they think i'm weird.

i quit about 3 weeks ago. i've been feeling better, but not 100%.. maybe only 30%.

is this caused by the weed? or do i have PTSD from the accident happening? i can't figure it out...