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I stopped wen i was 13 and started like at 9-10 so i was picking for about 3-4 years and i had low self esteem that time and always putting my probs on my skin... urg... i can remember those horrible days... well i guess u just stop picking... i stopped wen my family/parents stopped complaining and just lost hope for me to stop and i actually stopped because my parents wer the problems that was i dumping on my skin... and art kinda helped as well and now that im in highschool my face is the victim... urg... started two years after picking scabs... annoying!
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Someone actually commented oen night that my head was bleeding and I was like I bent down and when I srtaightening up I hit my head on teh corner of my mirror in the bathroom. Some dumb lie.
Why do I do this? Is this an addiction? I am a drug addict but I dont get what this is. I also bite/eat my cuticles. This started at a very young age.. actually I remember in kindergarden I had a safety pin and a very tough painless area on my thumb or somewhere I remembner I stuck the paper clip thrrough, and it made like the skin a little tougher, and I just remember I would always like chew at it.
I raced motocross growign up and had callousses on my hands, I would go at them, either with my teeth or even with a nail clipper, and its like mainly to eat them. I now only seem to bite my cuticles and fingertips that the skin is very tough from playing guitar. This isnt a pain thing becuase it doesn't hurt.. itsjust a thing thats so weird and embarrasing and stupid yet I continue to do it. SOmetimes my hands are healed up and I guess stress or something makes me go to dtown on them
THis scab thing is kidn of annoying though.. I try to leave it but I feel these like little lumps and I just wanna get that lil sucker off, use a comb get it through ym hair, then eat it, total satisfactions!
I seem to do this a little more when I am using drugs but drug or no drugs I do this really weird stuff. Like honestly today I was combing my hair and I kidn of pulled part of one half off by accident, and I was off to the races, I picked like every one in that little area then combed them out, then had a nice little meal. I am scared I am making a tiny bald spot.. like a splotch. Because sometimes a peice of hair with the part that goes into the scalp comes with the scab.
I know its stress related. And I know I have an addictive perosnality. Actually I am struggling with drugs really bad but the cuticle thing was way before I ever used. I cant imagine how gross someone would think I am if they saw me pick somethign otu of my hair and eat it.
Why am I so weird!!!!@!@!@ If I had a scab on my hand or soemthig id prob do the same but its like this little cluter of tiny scabs about 5mm. I dont wanna go get on zoloft or some5thing but is this somethign I can quit? Have yo had this prob with scabs and actually quit it?
Its not self mutilitation efven though sometimes it does hurt a little to get a good one. I would never make a post like this but I googled picking scabs on my scalp and there were so many people posting I was like HOLY c**p I am not alone. I never ever ever would have thought someone else would do this.
Also on the bottom of my feet the skin around my heel is a little tough so I go at it with like nail clippers oemtiems and pull strands of skin off and eat it. Thats it.. I am obviosuly a cannable. LOl I cant beleive I am actually telling people this. Does this mean I am probably a psychopath haha? Seriously growing up I was so normal, great life family, no drugs or alcohol until I was in college, I did have the callous eating prob and my dad always told me it was bad becuase this and that but I feel like if I can't quit picking these scabs how will I ever stop shooting dope and coke?
Oh y eah I am a drug addict since I graduated college. Started out eating a few perks and fast forward to a few years later and I am half in recovery half out shooting dope and coke but hating it yet I do it just like I hate how I pick my scabs but I do it.
Can someone tell me, am I just weak? Is there any hope I can quit doing the things I hate? Like I am weak with eating candy, a bit over emotional for a guy too and thats before i ever did drugs. Now that I have drug probs lifes just been totally c**p yet I stay stuck in this loop mainly of opiate addiction.
Wow it feels good to write this all but I seriously can't imagine how weird people must think I am drug use aside. I mean i eat my cuticles I love when my skin is tough o my heals and I can like peal it offf, sometimse I do it so much that I dont even realize but hte next morning itll hurt to walk around. LOL wow. holy c**p. typign all this I am actually realiizing how messed up I really am? and I feel so bad for my parents they raised me great yet why did I become a loser?
Some people use drugs or do whatever becuase they got molested or soemrthig.. well youd be hard pressed to find somethign bad abouty my child hood.
I just seem to cross every line I draw for my self and its a cycle that bring my lower and lower, draw line, cross it, feel failure, cross it more, plan to draw lines, never actually get there, or instead of drawing a line I spend 30 misn picking my stupid scalp scabs.
Imagine obama went on TV and he was like I have ocd scab picking guys!!
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i am a scab picker myself . dry skin makes scabs easy to pick at all i do everyday is pick at scabs.o.O
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is this bad ? cas i kinda do it
it jus irritates me tat there is something on my skin ... when i see anyhing tat looks like a scab etc : weird carpet design ... ... scab on somebody else ... blah blah ... i feel like picking them .... stupid right ?
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I can so relate to everyone! I have been picking since I was a child and I am now 36 yrs old. I do believe it is an obsessive compulsive disorder. I pick without even realizing I'm doing it. Currently I have 5 unhealed scabs on my face and neck, 5 unhealed scabs on my arm and two on my leg :-/. And I have COUNTLESS healed scabs that have left scars. I don't know what to do! As long as there is nothing to pick, I'm good (well, I just pick my cuticles). But I tend to get ingrown hairs , boils and body pimples that always leave me with somethin to pick at. I do not like how scars feel...the roughness. And the sad thing is that I have grown into such an expert that I can tell how the "pick" will go @ whether it will bleed, etc. I even get excited or feel some sense of accomplishment if I peel the scab in one peel and it doesn't bleed or puss....then I know it will scab over smoothly *sigh*. This just happened to a scar I have on my shoulder that I had been picking at since JANUARY. Like who does that??? Pick a scar for 9 months!?!?!? A scar that began as little as a small pimple and is now a HUGE black spot. I am so ashamed of the scabs and scarring that I think it keeps me from getting close to people. I haven't been in a serious relationship in over 10 yrs. I like being able to stay home or have people not see me when I feel my scabs are at their worst. It's really bad b/c I am an extremely attractive female and I constantly get attention from men but I think they would be so turned off if they could see how I self mutilate. SO ASHAMED and EMBARRASSED and don't know how to stop *tears*
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