One day something bad happened with him and he decided it was best to shut everyone out of his life

Hey guys. This isn't really a question. I just need someone to talk to. I don't want to talk to a therapist or a counselor, i just need a online stranger friend Lol. Last year about this time (early June) i met this boy on Mobage. He lives really really far away btw. I was playing zombie farm and went onto Mobage and found him. He was wearing makeup in his profile picture, but believe me: he was hot. I thought it was just a picture from Halloween or something, but after i talked to him i found out he was emo. He had a really screwed up past and cut himself. Then was the time that i realized i needed to be there for him instead of crushing on him. We used to talk nonstop and he called me his "little sis" i loved him so much. I've never really connected with my dad and i don't have an older brother so he was the guy figure in my life. One day something bad happened with him and he decided it was best to shut everyone out of his life. He insisted i delete his number and he blocked me on instagram and any other social media. It has been a year and i still miss him. He could have killed himself for all i know. I cut myself occasionally but only because i feel that the pain help although i know it doesn't. I miss him so damn much. Please someone help or talk to me? I don't need no damn therapist though.