:cry: Hello to everyone out there! My name is Amanda. I have Cystic Fibrosis too. I was born with this disease and have faced this everyday of my life. I am 19 years old. I have been close to death many times and I am lucky to be alive as long as I have been. I find myself rejecting my disease everyday and wish that I didn't have it. I am about to go to and appointment on April 13th, 2010 and they might be sticking me back in the hospital. My lung function is at 81% right now and I wonder everyday when god will take me. I wish everyday that I didn't have to deal with disease and the fear of death. People without Cystic Fibrosis is very lucky and fortunate. Why haven't they found a cure and why aren't they working harder to save the lives of people with Cystic Fibrosis too? Don't the people with CF matter too? It is hard having something to hold over my head everyday knowing that James the person I love could lose me any day. What happens when everyone I love and everyone that loves me, loses me? What happens when all the people that has family in this world is lost because of CF? I have never given up hope that someone will find a cure for my disease. I am still hoping that they try harder, but hope is fading everyday that I look at a computer screen and realize that no one has found a cure yet. They have found a cure for everything, BUT CF and they still aren't working as hard as they should and could. I really believe that many people are going to have to pass away for them to work harder on finding a cure for our disease. When will the fight for survival end? When will the lives of innocent people be saved from something so horrible? Time will tell I guess and all hope is in everyone else's hands. Please don't give up on us. Have a heart!