For a while, I've been in love with a guy. It doesn't sound that bad, does it? Well here's the catch . . . he's fiction. If you knew me, you would know it's very easy for me to fall for someone and hard to get out of it. About a week and a half ago, I was happy liking him because I knew he couldn't actually hurt me like real guys have, I was browsing the Internet and was looking at Fandom stuff from the series. Someone said a spoiler. I haven't finished reading the whole series he is from yet. What this person told me was something I thought I would never hear or read about. He dies in the third book. He dies. those two words just stuck in my skull. I almost cried once it processed. At first I didn't want to believe it and just said it was just a prank or something. But there were other people saying the same thing. I couldn't deny it anymore after about two days and decided to face the music. My week has been so depressing. Everything I hear a love song, I think of him and just start baling my eyes out. If I'm around my family or friends and I think about it or someone mentions his death, I need to walk out and keep to myself were I can just be alone. I don't know why I have these feelings for a fictional character. I haven't gone a day without thinking about him in about two months. Sometimes, when I think about just him and not his death, I'm on Cloud 9. Most of the time I try to focus on just him and not hid fate. It usually works, but if someone mentions his death I'll start tearing up and it makes my whole day complete sh*t. Yesterday, I was listening to Say Something  and I thought of him. I was home alone so I just let it out. I had to take off my glasses because they were soaked and I needed to wipe my eyes. I was sobbing so loud that I bet the neighbors downstairs and next to us could hear me. I was crying so hard I was choking on saliva. I let out all my emotions then. I still feel the same but I'm glad I just let it out. I don't know what do do about my feelings, why I have them, or even what they actually are. I could really use some help. Please.