Hi! I was diagnosed with both phimosis and HPV, so my urologist told me to get circumcised.
Being that HPV is something serious (an illness, after all) and that my foreskin always troubled me and my sex life in one way or another (I felt weird about how it looked and intercourse was uncomfortable and painful if not impossible), I decided to undergo surgery.
Today is my tenth post-op day.
I'm very anxious about how things are developing and what will be my sex life's future from now on. I've been dealing with so much stress, lately, due to this, not to mention that it was the first time I ever stepped on a clinic (I'm almost 30 years old, by the way).
There are certain things I already knew I should expect after the surgery, such as swelling, lymph discharge, purpleness, sprinkle-like pee, etcetera, which all subsided before the first week. I even went to my urologist's office and he checked me and said that everything was going ok.
I left his office without the piece of gauze I would put on every time I came out from the shower, and it did felt quite uncomfortable walking down the street. And it still does at some point. And that's one of the things that freak me out.
For instance, I'm just unable to figure out what's annoying me the most; I don't know whether it is the rubbing of the glans or the tip's slit against my underwear, or the small bruise I've got on the sulcus, or the stitches, or everything altogether! What drives me crazy it's not the fact that I'm going through a typical circumcision post-op, but the idea that everything will feel and stay and bother me this way forever!
I sometimes regret not having a foreskin anymore (although getting rid off HPV was somewhat worth it). But it's just that I feel so awkward and frustrated... It's not only my penis what feels weird, but also my movements: they are silly and limited and unnatural. I can't seem to walk straight and at a reasonable speed. Sitting down, standing up, such basic tasks are now almost impossible to accomplish.
I think of sex, or even masturbation, how will they be in a few weeks or months... And I feel so hopeless about that.
I mean, will my glans ever become desensitized enough to allow me to walk, act and move normaly? It already started to shed (which doesn't scare me, since I expected it to happen), but I keep wondering if that has something to do with keratinization or anything like that.
The stitches sometimes hurt (specially during erections at night, which I also expected), but I'm not sure if they have something to do with swelling (I can't tell if my penis is swelled; it does look significantly different from what it was, but still I can't figure out what should be its final shape) or with the awful sensation of having something folded around my glans, like if I still have my foreskin half rolled back.
Well, again, I don't want to think about masturbation and sex now, because it isn't time for such things (I even do my best to keep any dirty thought away; and it's not difficult since my libido is currently on the basement, due to my anxiety). But someday stitches will fall apart (I was given those that dissolve on their own; yet, I wonder if they'll stay forever) and I will feel the urge to release myself, at least through masturbation, and I'm scared that I won't know how to handle my new body... Not to mention sex with a partner. What if she is not patient enough or something?
Ok, I better stop. Any input will be appreaciated, specially from anyone who got circ'd in their adulthood.
Thank you so much in advance.
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Hi Circd,
First the bad news. You may have misunderstood your urologist. You will always have HPV, the circumcision did not eliminate it. It's a virus. It's in your body, your blood, and your semen.
About the sensitivity, it will decrease in time. There are millions of circumcised men out there and they don't have any issues. Your glans has been covered and protected. The nerves aren't used to being touched. The glans will dry out a bit and the head become less sensitive shortly.
Good luck.
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Thank you, medic-dan.
I don't mean to derail this thread, but regarding HPV, my case was diagnosed upon the warts I had in the inner side of my foreskin (at a very early stage, I suposse, since I didn't notice anything abnormal until then). I will ask my urologist again, next time I see him, about the likelyhood of still having it in my blood and semen.
About sensitivity, my major concern it's that I could probably hurt or injure myself by merely having my glans exposed while walking and doing my everyday normal life. I mean, I'm scared that that discomfort and annoyance could lead to injuries in my glans, meatus, sulcus, etcetera. It's getting drier everyday (as far as I can tell by looking at it, although I don't dare to touch it directly, yet, unless I'm under the shower and having my hands soaked on soap), but my frenulum scar (or the scar that is right there were my frenulum used to be) is one of the most sensitive part of all. I wonder when will it get desensitized too.
One thing I forgot to point out before: I notice that my shaft is thicker than my glans (in contrast to when I had a foreskin, which was the other way round: my glans was bigger than my shaft). I wonder if that's due to the stitches I've been given, and if that means that my shaft is swelled and will get to its normal girth back again.
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Some swelling is normal and it hasn't been that long of a recovery yet so give the girth/swelling time to resolve itself.
You won't hurt ANYTHING by doing your normal activities. Again, there are millions of males that have had circumcisions and they are fully functional - they have circumcision scars too.
Touch your glans! Yes it is sensitive but it needs to be touched so that it will become desensitized. You won't lose all feeling in it, ever.
Check with your doctor about the HPV. Genital warts can be caused by HPV. Many females have HPV as do many males. There are vaccines to prevent the spread.
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I'm having trouble figuring out how getting circ'd is supposed to help HPV. I can't find any mention of that as a treatment for it. I think the only treatment for it is treating the symptoms. I suppose cutting off the skin where the warts appear would get rid of those but what do you do when they appear on the glans or shaft?
Your penis will be just fine and you will walk normally and feel fine soon. This can't be too unexpected you certainly knew about your sensitive glans at your age. You must have experienced the feeling of having it exposed and rubbing on your underpants. I was quite familiar with that by the time I was 10. My foreskin was a little tight and it would get stuck behind the glans sometimes while I was doing my nightly masturbation. Often I would just leave it there and go sleep. When I awoke sometimes it was still back there and my glans was dried out and no where near as sensitive as when it was moist. I also discovered I liked the way it felt if I played with it when it was dry like that so I eventually began drying it on purpose out so I could masturbate by dry rubbing it. That feels great and I still do it that way today. So have no fear about how it will work. You just need to wait for the healing process to finish. About the frenulum or lack of it. Mine tore several times when I was first married and now I have none just like you. It's fine, mine is not sensitive at all.
I think you will love masturbation with your new exposed glans and sex will be fine too. Also sex is a joint venture where you both work out what you like, not taking it whatever way the other does it and hope it's ok.
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