Hi sorry if this isnt appropriate, I realize now that its like such a long post that i dont even know why anybody would waste their time reading this..but im new here and this is the first time telling my story so I figured I myswell tell it all. so basically this is the simplified version of my life over the last 1.5 years, it might be simplified a bit but my life has been so dull and repetative that although embarrassing for me im really not leaving out that many details. This has been my story with opiates so far,ill begin by letting you know that I only insuflated (sp),snorted/sniffed any opiate that ive tried and luckily for me I never picked up a needle, so defiantly i did not put one in my arm. I started using everyday about a year and a half ago in August, Oxycontin 40mg a day/everyday. then fast forward about half a year later and remarkably I am still snorting only 1, 40mg Oxy everyday.
So about 6 months into my addiction me and a friend who didnt know of my opiate dependence decide to take a spur of the moment all inclusive resort vacation to Mexico for a week.) long story short I got there, and basically bathed in alcohol for the next 7 days from morning tell late night and to my suprise I honestly didnt even feel one withdrawal symptom during this time, I didnt feel bad one time except for maybe a few mins in the morning until I rehydrated my life from the night of heavy drinking before. I didnt know this was possible and really everything I just wrote is irrelevent to me today, but i was really curious to ask if anybody knew why I didnt withdrawal even a little, was it the alchohol or what.
okay so thats out of the way on to the more recent situation, basically I got back a week later, dropped my friend off and went and copped a OC 40 as soon as possible.Wow I regret this move the most out of everything ive done in the last year and a half, at that point I could have got off my 6 month daily addiction so easily ( no withdrawals!) if I had just stopped then, but nope of course that didnt happen. And then a couple months later they stopped making the old formula crushable OC 40s, which again would have been a perfect time to quit aswell, but nope moved onto snorting bags of dope daily, first few months could get by even get high with .2-.25 gram per day, with that I now bring you to present day, now I need a minimum of .4-.5 grams a day, depending on how good the quality is that might get me feeling a really tiny amount above what i consider feeling normal is, but i usually dont bank on that happening, and when I am able to, I will do up to 1 gram a day, but dope is mega expensive where im from so that doesnt happen as often as everyone would like it to unfortunetly so for this purpose we will just say .4-.6 gram a day.
So congrats you have made it this far we are now a year and 7 months from me first starting OC, after many relationships and friendships ruined, a year and a half of my life wasted, and I dont even want to do the math on how much money wasted, I am now commited and ready to go through the withdrawals and quitting process so I can finally kick dis sh*t for good. In order for me to feel not sick, and iust normal my everyday routine is spending $2-$300, in addition to a minimum of 8 hours of my time waiting around, worrying, calling, hustling, and wondering. and now I am so done with it, disgusts me to even think about and type out the amount of time and money ive wasted just coasting through this terrible life I have.
so I will finally be able to move my life in a positive forward direction, instead of staying neutral or worse moving backwards and I can stop spending my time and money on this dumb waste of time. I have been slowing down as much as my mind and body would let me over these last 2 weeks, while at the same time doing everything I could to convince myself this is the right thing to do, and that I can do it and am ready to do it. that I ultimately NEED to quit. and ive been stocking up on a bunch of the strongest Kratom I could get my hands on, and a couple other varietys of Kratom as well as whatever benzos, medicines(sleeping pills) vitamins, and supplements I could get my hands on. ill be Honest though, and I dont find this to be discouraging for me in any way but I haven't personally experienced full on opiate withdrawals yet, I haven't had to go more then 24 hours without since i started, but even though ive never gone through it personally this does not have me discouraged, and I know I can do it and that im going to get it done. The whole reason I started this thread is so I could get any personal advice regarding the only aspect of this withdrawal that I am nervous about and that is the dreaded Restless Leg Syndrome im a little scared cause usually even after about 10 hours without for me the RLS is in my opinion really truly overwhelmingly, unbearably awful, and even when I didnt do opiates I had my fair share of Anxiety and RLS, I did do some research on the subject and I feel I know the basics on what vitamins and natural products can help, as well as using and not abusing Kratom, but any so called advanced techniques, personally techniques that have been used successively or general tips somebody can give me would be truely greatly appreciated, sometimes when I get RLS I like to take my car out for a spin, but at the same time this can make me feel anxious for some reason so its a win lose situation. and please dont mistake me confidence for me thinking this is going to be a easy walk in the park, i know it will not be easy but I need to stay confident cause I have nobody else for support. anyways I just wanted to get this relatively long story out of my head and off my chest and tell it for the first time to people that will hopefully care a tiny bit, and at the same time hopefully get some helpful advice to get through this painful time ahead of me.
thanks in advance
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It's possible that since ousting drugs for approx 6 months only, your body is not 100% addicted yet. I do doubt this though. I expect you are physically and definitely, addicted. You should stop all opiates and see what happens. Don't think about it that much. If by day 2, you do not have withdrawal then continue with nothing. if you have withdrawal symptoms I recommend Suboxone. 2 tabs or films per day (can divide ea, Dose in half if necessary). You may want to start with one tab or film prescribed ea. day (divide in two and, take 1/2 in morning & 1/2 in evening). Seems to work great if take a dose when in bed for night & let dissolve while sleeping. Wake up feeling normal and not needing or, even wanting another dose until later in day. Get a doctor appt. don't bother with trying to buy on streets etc. the time spent waiting, hustling (as you said) is ridiculous and no matter what people say, buying any drug on street I ends up costing A LOT MORE than even most expensive Suboxone Dr. Stop the BS & all the "what ifs" etc., & take care of your problem. It doesn't have to be an ordeal & is not end of the world. It happens to so many people. Schedule appt for Suboxone now. If not needed you can always cancel but, by doing it now, you may avoid unnecessary withdrawal in case Dr. Can't see you for few days or a week. (You will need Suboxone. - you are addicted or you would not be reading on this type of website). So, do yourself a priceless favor today: take care of yourself/situation now before 10 yrs go by &, you're still doing drugs. Your future self will thank you knowing that today, your deliberate actions paved the way for a successful, normal & positive life by "nipping" a problem with one phone call/Dr. appt. rather than, speculating, denial, excuses that Dr. too expensive/crook etc., therefore, paving the way for a very different future of financial problems, being accountable to family, friends, authorities etc., grief, poor appearance/health, days spent counting pills, "finding" money, apologizing, meeting up, worrying, waiting &, risking jail. Its inevitable. I hope this answer helps you. Thanks. G
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^ absolutely right. You just need to quit and try not to over think it. I was a heroin addict..a few years of it, got to where I shot up about 2 grams of tar each day...and now I have a felony for possession and it's a pain in the ass. I've been clean for 4 years and it still has effects because I kept on until I got arrested and had to detox cold turkey in jail. If you can't stand the detox I'd get Suboxone...it helps a ton but has a WD of its own. If you can muster up the energy, exercising helps as it releases endorphins that your body is deprived of from using H. Stay hydrated and keep focus...don't try to use a little to take the edge off or substitute your current addiction for another one.
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