Alright, so I'm kinda seeing this guy that I have liked for the past six years. He is fairly patient, and I do feel like I can trust him. Hell, he's been there for me when I really needed a friend for certain personal emotional issues, and my best friend totally thought I was lying and turned her back on me, and she continuously told me I was an id**t for liking him cause he was a jerk to her. That aside I pretty much think that explains it.
So I have been sexually active with this guy for the past year. And he has brought up the topic of anal. Now let me add that he's bisexual--so he would know all about it. And I've told him that I don't think I'm ready for that yet. Now I am young, this is our twentieth year for both of us. He's never really pressured me, but he has on different occasions claimed that he would like to do that with me.
I know its quite a bit of phobias holding me back. Like he asked if its because I'm afraid that I would enjoy it? My fear is of course pain, even after being really lubed up, and him taking his time (he's got quite a bit of girth), the pain period no matter the size, feeling awkward after in every way shape and form, the feel of it during the whole process.
Now as I mentioned before, I do trust him and he is patient (like I've read is the best thing for anal.), I'm not sure if I trust him with those kinds of emotions of mine. After all in school he did have quite a few sexual partners, I don't know about now I just know that I use a condom every time :), and I know that people can change. Its just that I know who I'm talking about, and I can only see him as a flirty person who does care about his friends, but can't really see taking a romantic interest in someone...Oh God now that sounds heartless of me....It totally makes sense in my head, so forgive me if it doesn't here, I am sincerely trying my best. lol But anyway I feel like if I do, do anal, that I need complete trust in that person...If you know what I mean.
So in other words, I was just curious to know how if felt from another females point of view who has done both vaginal and anal, and can compare them. I did look online for some answers, and found one reference to fingers. Well that doesn't really help me. I mean more of pleasurable sensations. Like I thoroughly enjoy this guy during vaginal sex, he is very satisfying in that feel of the stretch, now I did read some feel it in just that first initial thrust? For me, its through out the whole session that I enjoy it. Though on the same token that just be because I have really liked this guy for a VERY long time. Like I'm pretty sure he's hitting the G-spot on top of that too...And how to possibly get over my phobias.
I know you're probably gonna say, "sit down and have a talk." Let me tell you that is MUCH easier said then done. I don't think I'd ever be able to do that with him...Its kinda that feeling you get. Again I can't really explain it. Like that feeling that you're gonna put everything on the table, and it's not what some one was hoping to hear, and you feel like you let them down, which makes you feel like c**p. Yeah, okay you now know what I'm talking about.
Now this has also peeked my interest on it. Just because there seems to be a lot of talk about anal and porn out there. So I was just curious to know what the huba baloo is about. I know its one of those things that you can't know unless you've tried it, but as I mentioned....Phobias.
Anyone care to enlighten me?
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