Hey guys,
Exactly one week ago I tried acid for the first time. I was having a great trip but then right at the end I took a huge bong rip and started to slowly freak out. I thought that my trip was lasting to long and had a flow blown panic attack. Anyways, that was a week ago and up until 4 days ago I had been feeling normal, just like myself other than maybe not thinking quite as clearyly as normal.
But then 3 days after tripping I was working on a philosophy mid-term and just started to freak out. I didnt know what was happening, but I later found out if was an anxiety attack. I have been having these on and off for the past 3-4 days now. I went to see some doctors and they gave me some Ativan and some Zoloft, but I still feel like im just going crazy.
I know that its probably the anxiety talking, but I just think im going to go crazy. As a result my mind (I also have OCD in regard to thinking btw) begins to operate like it normaly wouldnt. I think thoughts that aren't really normal, and I feel like I cand think and like my mind has gone blank sometimes.
Although I know that it is probably the anxiety, I fear that I will never be able to get out of this cycle and everytime I do calm down enough not to have the physical symptoms (shaking, chills, etc.) my mind still isnt operatign at the cognitive level it was even 4 days ago and I start to fear that I have gone crazy and even if I havent gone crazy, thinking like this and having some of the thoughs I do while experience an anxiety attack will cause me to go crazy.
I am really freaking out, and I just cant get out of this vicious cycle of thinking. The Ativan helps somewhat, but I dunno. I just really dont want to end up crazy for the rest of my life.
Exactly one week ago I tried acid for the first time. I was having a great trip but then right at the end I took a huge bong rip and started to slowly freak out. I thought that my trip was lasting to long and had a flow blown panic attack. Anyways, that was a week ago and up until 4 days ago I had been feeling normal, just like myself other than maybe not thinking quite as clearyly as normal.
But then 3 days after tripping I was working on a philosophy mid-term and just started to freak out. I didnt know what was happening, but I later found out if was an anxiety attack. I have been having these on and off for the past 3-4 days now. I went to see some doctors and they gave me some Ativan and some Zoloft, but I still feel like im just going crazy.
I know that its probably the anxiety talking, but I just think im going to go crazy. As a result my mind (I also have OCD in regard to thinking btw) begins to operate like it normaly wouldnt. I think thoughts that aren't really normal, and I feel like I cand think and like my mind has gone blank sometimes.
Although I know that it is probably the anxiety, I fear that I will never be able to get out of this cycle and everytime I do calm down enough not to have the physical symptoms (shaking, chills, etc.) my mind still isnt operatign at the cognitive level it was even 4 days ago and I start to fear that I have gone crazy and even if I havent gone crazy, thinking like this and having some of the thoughs I do while experience an anxiety attack will cause me to go crazy.
I am really freaking out, and I just cant get out of this vicious cycle of thinking. The Ativan helps somewhat, but I dunno. I just really dont want to end up crazy for the rest of my life.
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