i had a medical abortion 5 weeks ago. i was 17 weeks 4 days pregnant! i've suffered depression for years and thought i was well enough to try for another baby (i already have a 2 year old daughter) i found out i ws pregnant in february and came off my meds but after a week or so, i starte goin downhill. so low i wanted to kill myself. i was imgining horrible things happenng to me and my bay. because of ths, it was decided that would have an abortion. i really didnt want to so left t a long time before seeing th doctor. i was 15 weeks. of course by this time i was showing and tryng to hide it was hard. i basically didnt leave th house unless absoloutly necessary. i had a medical abortionn which i have since been told is wrong, i shoud have had a surgical one. i ahd to push my dead baby into th world in th same way as my daughter. only this time, over a toilet bowl knowing i woudnt see or hold my baby. it was horrific. i cried for days and days after. slept less than an hour a day. i was like a walking zombie. 5 weeks later and i stil cry most days, if i do manage to get to sleep, i have nightmares about my baby. will it ever get better? i cant go on like this