Today at 2pm I terminated my pregnancy. First before you read know that I feel irrisponsable. I havn't been able to sleep. I feel like I have robbed my child of it's safe haven. everytime I close my eyes I see the horrifying things that are being done to it during the time that I can't remember because of the anesthesia. I have two children already. my firstson is two years old. and my second son is 4 months. I placed my second son for adoption because I knew that I was not stable to support him finacially. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. knowing that this child was mine but not mine. My two year old son I support my child support and theenormous help of my mother. I wanted to keep this baby. Everyone in my ear was telling me todo the abortion. my sister told me she had done it twice. I looked at her differently since she told me that. how could I not feel remorse? I love my children so much. my son's father made me do this on a one sided decision. "whatever you want to do" he wouldsay.he wouldn't tell me what he wanted to do. but secretly he is a stingey man that only cares about money. and playing video games at the age of 27 years old. x military. I just don't know what to do. or who to talk to. I hate face to face therapy so this is where I turn. i was told that I wouldn't be left alone if I was to keep this baby. but I was lied to. I feel so broken from this. I feel damned. what else can I say besides that what I feel I did was wrong. WHen I knew there was something better out there. But my heary couldn't take the idea of another adoption. With my school it would be so difficult. I was prepared to take on this hardship. But family in my ear. being left my the man I loved. I couldn't face the hearbreak. only to find that it is vreaking even more than I thought. I can't sleep. I don't want to eat. I did this to my son or daughter and I feel sodamned. someone please help me. I need comfort. and the hugs from my son make me happy but it makes me hurt a little more.
Sincerely,
Chelsy Harrison
Sincerely,
Chelsy Harrison
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hi, i no how u feel. i had an abortion 5 weeksa ago and so deeply regret it i dot no what to do. i have a 2year old daughter and have to try stay strong for her but its hard. its 2 th point where she keeps giving me random hugs saying dont cry. for th first week i didnt eat and slept for maybe an hour a nght, now if i do get to sleep i have nightmares. i have only had 1 councilling session but it helped talking out loud about it as i hadnt to anyone before. there is always people on here to talk to if u need to. i'm on every day if u need to say/ask/do something
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