It's crazy cause I hear people say they can use drugs recreationally and though that may be what you would like to beluor convince yourself of it's never the truth! I used to say " I have drugs drugs don't have me" well until I learned " I have drugs drugs don't have me until I have no drugs then they have me"!! If you are keeping what you do a secret from family friends significant other co workers your boss then most likely it cause you shouldn't be doing it and it's wrong. With that I am a current user have been in active addiction most of my life despite lengthy periods of time maintaining sobriety. I still craved wanted and thought about it but pregnancy jail replacing one addiction with another gave me time here and there that I wasn't using meth! I was 25 years old divorced after 10 years of marriage with two kids I was lost I had been married since I was 15 and I thought I had met my knight and shining armor who was a lot older than myself well one month after getting married (I had only been divorced 6 months wtf was I thinking) he stuck a needle in my arm he set out to prey on a young naive mother who was broke broken inside is what I was! He succeeded for years then I finally broke away got my life together and met a wonderful man who is far from perfect but he's everything I wanted. He's got a good career never been to jail never did drugs and yet two years into this relationship I am using behind his back ugh I'm so disappointed in myself I don't inject but either was it's drug use and I am tired of this life u fall into a trap the definition of insanity! Sometimes I'm happy and it doesn't bother me till I lay down at night I do sleep and eat but when I lay down I find myself almost having a panic attack cause I know what tomorrow brings. If I chose not to use tomorrow I wouldn't be able to get up to do all the things he is so used to me doing like being able to wrangle 5 kids keep our huge home clean cook dinner and be there to answer the calls all day for mom
i need this mom I need that Mom can u help me Mom I have to go here or so and so are coming over I couldn't cause I would need the sleep that requires one to get off the sh*t. No matter where u go and how far you go the devil finds u I live somewhere that I know nobody but I know a dealer that's pure crazy he find me he seeks me out I know GOD and I know god may mean so many things but one of the things it means to me is GET OFF DRUGS (GOD) I need help
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