If You Have Schizophrenia How Are You Suposed to Know?

I have thoughts that race through my head. I cant control their speed nor direction and I think so hard and so fast that its exhausting get through a day. I know the body movements facial expressions and tone of voice to appear as if I'm completely fine but uinderneath my thoughts are always racing. I feel like everything around me is fake. Like they appear to be real but it could easily be a dream. I have difficulty staying emotionally active in a relationship. I often think my partner is cheating on me or that I'm not good enough for her. I don't trust any of my family or friends because I know they aren't real and I haven't learned to control them yet which usually ends up with me being betrayed. I often believe that at any second I could die. Sometime when I start a sentence I'll believe that I'm going to die instantly midsentence and when it doesn't happen I'm disappointed. My mom and grandfather were diagnosed with bi polar and as far as I know no one in my family has schizophrenia. I talk to myself constantly often outloud but I've never heard voices. I've never seen anything tangibly out of place when it comes to hallucinations. But i think I do hallucinate. I see something in the corner of my eye or today I saw a car drive into my lane right behind me and when i looked in the rearview he was gone. I often stare into space and get lost in my thoughts. I have lapses in memory and I have impulse control issues. I have issues with food and with sex. I seek thrills that affect my life. I'm addicted to cigarettes I smoke pot and do ecstasy because when I'm high, the thoughts slow down. The only time I can talk to people the way I want to is when I'm rolling on ex. I have called a psychiatrist and its $280 a session. I can pay that but that would be all my savings every check and I dont know if it would help since I cant believe anyone could really listen and take me seriously. I have a 40k a year job a car a girlfriend my own apartment and every reason to be happy but im not. I'm constantly depressed and I think about suicide at least once a day. I have been depressed since I was 17 and its gotten worse as i get older. Im 22 now and I feel I've hit my peak for psychological issues. I always feel like if I tell others whats going on they think I'm being dramatic. I feel like less of a man when I try to talk about it. No one understands.

It seems to me like I might have early symptoms of schizophrenia.

No one in my family history as far as I know has been diagnosed with this condition, but... I don't know.

I am a very creative person. I read about some people (example, David Bowie) who used creativity to express emotions that they were uncomfortable with sharing. I do this more than half the time when I am doing anything art-related. I am very moved by music, and it impacts the emotions that I have from day to day. I find it hard to focus on something if it's really quiet. I'm always thinking of something; my brain feels like it never rests. I am very defensive when people criticize me, even constructively, or more often when I am requesting help (like in math) and I feel like the helper's words are getting in the way of my own thoughts. It's like I feel they aren't on the same page as me, and that if they don't teach me in a way that only I can understand, then I will lose interest very quickly.

I do hallucinate sounds sometimes.... I often think someone will say my name quietly from a distance, and sometimes I even hear faint, various genres of music when no one else can hear them. I don't think having selective hearing during conversations would impact this, but I honestly don't know. I also giggle or even laugh at the most spontaneous moments, and occasionally during inappropriate times.

I get angry at weird little things, usually just in conversations (it might again be the selective hearing) and when something doesn't feel right, I get mad at others for no reason.

I usually am pretty quiet, unless when I'm around my best friend (who I also think might be schizophrenic.. we're a lot alike) when I can be very loud, and have even stranger reactions to my surroundings. I can occasionally become depressed or have a withdrawl from social life, and I'm not really much of a sleeper... I love feeling rested, but now as I'm getting older, it seems harder to stay asleep.

One thing I don't have too much of is communication problems. I do mumble quite a bit and slur my words kind of naturally. I don't think that it is just the way I'm used to speaking... Because none of my family members have this problem. And I don't usually make up words as much as I do make up random sounds.

I've done quite a bit of research, and it looks like I might have what's called "undifferentiated-type schizophrenia," which is a combination of varying types of schizo. I believe my type to be kind of mild, and on good days, not as much. But even on good days I always have a dull feeling of anxiety, and my mind feels as if it will never fully be resting.

Please reply and tell me what you think of this!

Thanks,
a concerned adolescent.

HELLO! i am 16 and have reason to believe i am schizophrenic

my parents dont believe it but they are not me, and do not know what it think and see.

i cannot control my thoughts on reality and everyday i feel more and more and more that it does not exist. and sometimes wonder if i exist.

i see what i am thinking to be demons, all around, constantly. they are not there to hurt me, but sometimes i wonder if they will. maybe just energies? maybe they do want to kill me? but then again, is this real or is anything real?

my thought process bounces around constantly throughout the day. and i find myself awake for DAYS on end trying to avoid my thoughts....

i was normal (not really but sortof) a couple years ago.....and i sometimes felt like this would happen in the future because my dad has it pretty bad :(

i experimented with magic mushrooms, LSD, ecstacy, alcohol, and mostly Marijuana throughout the last 5 years, and i feel after that my brain has unlocked what may have been in there?

someone help me.....

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Hello, i'm 17 and have had paranoid 'delusions' since i was around 11, before that i dont remember. ive felt like im being plotted against, even by loved ones, almost consistently. Ive had vivid hallucinations of hearing people plotting against me, people in my house, outside my windows, against doors while they're shut, its like theyre listening and whispering so faintly i can barely hear, i am damn sure no ones there even though i check almost every time. ive withdrawn from so many friends, school activities, and even missed a cousins wedding because of plain fear of going outside. Felt like people get in my head and pick out exactly what im thinking when they say something and it messes with me, i know whats really going on but the paranoia grips me and i pull out of the situation. And oftentimes at school theres too much sh*t running through my head like a train for me to think about anything but the work ive got and the thoughts inside me even after im done with them and no matter how it reconciles itself because the voices in my head wont ****.

and the anger boiling in my stomach and up my back like needles and fire. its almost to a blinding inability to connect with anyone or anything. Even in good days im a split close to hitting or beating somebody with a desk if they so much as look in my direction. ive reconciled so much about myself in my head that often enough i cant connect with anybody. Ive had feelings about psychologists like theyre gonna get in my head and f*ck with everything that im too afraid to go and see one. Ive been depressed and have had recurring and demanding suicidal thoughts, sometimes from arguing voices in my head. I cant ever bring myself or spring on talking to anybody about it.

I have had a lot of the same feelings and delusions in the past and I reccomend talking to a councilor and or doctor, just remember they are there to HELP you.  What really got me was that I didn't want to be 'controlled' and thought everyone was trying to control me but then it hit me, if I'm thinking thoughts about hurting myself or others, maybe I need to be controlled more than others. 

I sometimes think I hear people calling my name and I sometimes I smell things that were common scents of my grandmother and uncle such as coffee and perfume. In addition, I tend to see, I guess, shadows from the corner of my eye from time to time and I usually zone out whenever I talk. My family says I act like a squirrel because I always zone out and immediately stop in the middle of a statement. I used to cut myself and have had two failed suicide attempts, but no one in my family knows about it. I think that they would shun me and try to get me to talk about it but I hate having to talk when I don't need to. My parent's divorce became official a few days after my birthday which is the day my grandmother died. I really don't find a need to celebrate my birthday anymore because it feels wrong to be celebrating on the day my grandmother died. My mother constantly asks me how I feel about the divorce and the death being so close to and being on my birthday but I tell her it doesn't really effect me, things happen and we can't control it. She believes me when I tell her this; she seems to be grateful that she doesn't have to comfort me and that I'm a "strong willed" child. In reality, I feel like I'm a pretty messed up 14 year old. Compared to my other siblings, I feel like I don't belong and that I'm pyschotic. Honestly, I have a love-hate relationship with my whole family. One day I can adore them and smile and laugh like there is not a care in the world. The next day I feel like just gathering my things and running away because I hate them so much. I get the feeling that I'm just a "prodigy" to my family. They think I'm going to be the one that is going to graduate college with honors, gets a well paying job, and be able to support them when they are in need. I don't want to tell my mother for the reason that she would send me to a therapist and like I previously stated I dread talking about how I feel, why I did this/that, and I absoluetly hate when people think that they an "help" me. That's why I keep my ear plugs in all the time, so I don't have to hear people talk about me or try to talk to me. However, that's sort of what I wantm I want to be able to hear them talk about me so I have even more reason to kill myself.

see I wish all of us can come together and talk about stuff like this because I feel so alone and I'm sure you All do too . I'm not sure if I have it but I always have voices of mine telling me to fix yourself I can never relax because no matter the situation these voices tell me to do something and I worry way to much this perfection quality has led me to failure and resulting in laziness and no motivation once so ever as once I was . I've had a really tough life so far but I'm not gonna dwell on it . I am so confused about many things and I have no one to talkto and so many things are bottled up inside me I have no good friends that I hang out with to even talk to . Even if italk to someone I feel that they don't like me secretly and I f**k up with girls I mean I get a fair amount for my age 17 but I've always had that spark to go further and didn't trust them or found at least one flaw or something I made up about them even if they loved me and did anything for me but I hate being like this I can never really just have fun anymore I don't have love for anything anymore besides when I get really drunk there is so much More I'd appreciate it if someone can answer me or anyone who. Feels slightly like me to talk to me

From what I gather about schitzophrenia is because I am not sure if I have it myself or not ,I am hearing my own thoughts being talked back to me. I can even kind of control what it is, if I where to say something in my head then  I would hear it exactly as I said it. That in itself is creepy and probably means that I have it. I also have trouble sleeping because i'm hearing two people talking like they are next door. From what I understand is that that someone with high or low dopomine or histomine would have something to do with schitzphrenia but that's all I really know

Hey. I'm Amy. i believe i have schizophrenia because i hear voices inside my head that insult me and play on my fears and insecurities. i have found that I've been talking back to them more recently. i tell them to be quiet but they barely listen and sometimes they make me have meltdowns. and sometimes just a random thought or something i heard will bounce around in my mind, starting out really slow and getting faster and faster until it's just a buzz echoing inside my head and it makes me have headaches. when i was little i used to believe i had special abilities and people were out to get me. people made fun of me and my friends still think i'm weird because i thought the "games" we played about being controlled and stuff were real. and i used to believe that some outside force would hurt me if i didn't do the right thing. and sometimes i have problems controlling my anger. i'm not sure if i'm imagining everything but i think i have schizophrenia. i don't want to tell anyone besides my best friends and sister because no one would believe me. but ever since i was little I've been hearing and sensing things and my hands are always shaking and ... i don't know. i just want some help. anyone?

I am a 14 year old female. I scared I might have schizophrenia. I often hear voices in my head when it's quiet or I'm alone. And I don't believe it's my conscience because when i hear these voices I become really scared. It started when I was maybe 11 and it has gotten more sever now ( as in I hear the voices 1-2 times a day when I use to hear them maybe 1 time every few months. Also I get very scared over little things. And have anxiety, a lot. Like the other night I was cleaning the bathroom and something fell over and I got scared, to the point I had to leave the room. Also a lot of the when I'm in my room alone I think someone is in there with me watching me sleep. Therefore causing me to be unable to sleep please help cause I don't know what to do.

Im only 12 and a couple of years ago my mum and dad split up i got very angry and started to see this man wearing a red jumper i called him tom but i had counciling for a bit to deal with my stress but i self harmed the other week and i keep on seeing mens faces and hearing them call me i feel like someone is following me every were and im really scared is this normall im worried i could have schizaphernia

i am like that but i don't no if i have got it :(

im not sure if i have skitzo but i hear voices in my head alot and they tell me to do stuff its scary some times like when it tells  me to kill sh*t i keep feeling a bug going up my leg and i keep seeing some girl looks like the one off the grudg and she  fallows me and im paranoid all the time i carry a knife on my ALLL time and im not sure why but somethings alweise fallowing me i have bad memory and sometimes ill black out but im awake its like somethings controoling me but its someone else and i dont remember anything after words and sometimes when i get in fights i black out but all i c is white thenm i useully wake up on top of some kid who picked a fight with me pounding his face in im only 14 and i think i mite have it can someone help me out or give me sugestions?

Hi. I didn't really think that my thought patterns were that different from other peoples, but from what I've seen on this forum my thoughts are much different from what people on heres thoughts are like. I forget easily, and my mind is very dark and scrambled, I can't really identify traits about myself all too well for some reason, and I'm not good at concentrating or paying attention. Sometimes I see or hear things that aren't there, and I can tell what people think about me just from the way they look at me. I DO think there is something out to get me because I'm special, but I didn't think that was that abnormal people have just called me paranoid... I don't sleep well, and I have trouble getting to sleep because my mind is so cluttered. I don't dream a lot but have vivid dreams, where i can feel physical pain? I don't know if that's a symptom, in fact I'm not sure if anything I've said are symptoms, just putting it out there.

I'm curious because a year ago my mother sent me to a psychologist because someone had told her they thought I had schizophrenia, I didn't see her for very long and she says she's inconclusive about it.

i have schizophrenia and a im 17 i live a normal life found a nice girl hopefully moving into something more like me and her instead of casual sex and ive knew for a year a two now and when i smoked weed i heard many voices studied them my first thought then seeing how diff rent it got and what ways and 9/out of 10 i have a thought like should i go out drinking tonight ??? then i hear or perceive a thought like yeah f**k it lets get vodka n etc then after when i calm down from it i normally have a thought like hmmm should i be sensible and look after my mates or only drink abit does anyone know why or why i think theres somthing crawling on my skin and i look down and it stops ? and who thinks schizophrenia has something to do with jinn not the acholl btw

 

 I am twelve and think i may be schtizo. i hear voices and am under the dillusion i am growing wings. i dont want to tell my parents because they worrie too much. what do i do?