I'm 14 and lost my virginity, but I wanted to be different

I met a guy on Facebook and we hung out and yeah you know we just hung out and I remember laying on his bed and he wanted to have sex but I didn't want too he kept saying everyone has to loose it at some point I still refused , but we hung out again and then I lost it to him we weren't even dating and I'm really sad because everyone always talks about how your virginity is important but with this generation you can never know I just didn't want to be that one girl who over exaggerates over they're virginity I wanted to be different so that he can like me but what he doesn't know is that I think of it everyday yes he used me I get it but I don't want him to know that I know that I don't want him to feel bad or to have that awful feeling that you get when you do something wrong I want him to speak a story of me it's sad because I just don't wanna be like every other girl but I've noticed I'm worse and this didn't make it any better we didn't even know eachother for a long time not even for 6 months and I lost it to him ! I just can't stop thinking about it I think about it everyday honestly and don't know what to do I don't need advice I just need him to know what I'm doing and not to feel bad about it , it's all so confusing to me