since ive been on the medicine. my mood has gotten soo much better. i feel like im always worrying less and less about my depression. i feel like the actual "pain" that comes with depression is gone. however, i still feel like im not having as much fun in fun situations as i normally would. my sense of humor has gotten worse too. i cant remember the last time i had a "great" laugh. also, my sexual life has faded. i find masturbation not as fun as it used to be. i feel like i've sort of lost interest in it and i can't even accept the great feeling that it brings. it takes me longer to get "hard" than normal and its kind of hard for me to keep it "hard"
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Hi hon! As you have already noticed a positive difference just know that the rest will keep getting better. It can take up to 6 weeks to totally take affect. So don't worry about it yet OK? And also know that there are MANY different types of medications, I do think this is the one for you, but you can only tell when it has settled into your system! So if it doesn't then you can try another! Everyone is different remember!
One thing I want to bring up again, is JUST incase you feel more down or thoughts of suicide then you HAVE to get help immediately OK? It doesn't sound like that, but I saw one of those other commercials for pharmaceuticals last night and the same warnings about children, teens and young adults etc. etc.
I know it's hard honey, but try not to think about your depression! I know how it is when you think to yourself, "Oh that must be this or that!" you WILL feel "normal" soon honey! Just accept it as it comes OK? And if you feel you are still not coping, then You need to see your doctor again OK?
One thing I want to bring up again, is JUST incase you feel more down or thoughts of suicide then you HAVE to get help immediately OK? It doesn't sound like that, but I saw one of those other commercials for pharmaceuticals last night and the same warnings about children, teens and young adults etc. etc.
I know it's hard honey, but try not to think about your depression! I know how it is when you think to yourself, "Oh that must be this or that!" you WILL feel "normal" soon honey! Just accept it as it comes OK? And if you feel you are still not coping, then You need to see your doctor again OK?
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yes thank you ur right. i have another appt with my doctor on the 31st. im glad i get to see him about once a month.
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How have things been going with you? I just got a text from an anxious friend and it made me think of you. How are things? Are you feeling any better? It's a day-by-day struggle and you really feel better in bits and pieces. Hopefully you're feeling more and more. :)
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yes thanks for asking, actually i am feeling much better. now its just a battle of getting the memory out of my mind of the depression. i feel like im traumatized from it. even when im feeling fine nowadays and am in a fun situation, i always notice that at certain times i feel like i have to almost check myself, my thoughts, and figure out if i'm really having fun or not. the memory is the worst part, other than that ive been feeling good.
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It is a kind of trauma in some way! And this will get less and less as time goes by! Think of it as moving to another country and slowly day by day learning another language! For AGES you keep thinking in English and have to keep translating back - in your mind - but after awhile all of a sudden you just start not thinking about the English word you just automatically know the right word! It's the same thing honey! You are retraining your brain - which is still surprised that all of this c**p happened - to start thinking positively! It's just takes time to learn this "new language" I am so glad things are working out for you honey! I've just started talking to another young boy with similar problems to you too! So there are MANY people in this world right now fighting to be "normal" and it sounds like you are winning the battle! Good for you hon, proud of you!
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Well, you know, you'll be depressed again. Maybe not like you were, but it is something that you will probably have to deal with in the future. This is a good way for you to learn how to be happy when you're happy and be sad when you'er sad. I know it can kinda hurt your good times but trust me it won't last. It just feels that way now because it's so fresh on your mind. It will fade, okay?
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yes i understand. thank you for the support and positive words. i also noticed myself getting mild panic attacks. but they only seem to happen when im masturbating. today was the first time it happened in a long time. what happens is i'll be just starting to masturbate, and all of a sudden i just get EXTREMELY nervous over nothing. my erection COMPLETELY dies and it dosen't come back up. once i decide to stop, ill go do something else for like a half hour, try to masturbate again and it's fine. why does this happen?
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Heart rate!!! When you have any stimulation, your heart rate increases! And the pills you are on counteract the increased excitement! This will pass soon! And good for you to distract yourself! So just know that this will level out too! The good thing is you are enjoying that again!! So that's a big improvement!
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Yeah, my guess is that your body is misinterpreting the increased pulse as a threat and that's why you lose your erection. What oyu have to do is just expose yourself to it other and over again so that your brain doesn't perceive it as a threat any longer. Does that make sense?
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yea thanks i was just wondering why it happens. that was the second time it happened and the first time was before i started the meds. it just sorta freaked me out
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I totally understand that. Yeah, you basically have to retrain your body so that you don't freak out every time. It takes awhile, but it works.
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right... ok well i started the meds on july 17. its now a month and 4 days later. last night i decided to smoke with my friends. i ended up getting pretty high and it was pretty enjoyable. i drew sooooo many conclusions about my life. it felt like i was in a learning experience. but anyways, the reason i smoked was because this is my test. i'm experimenting with pot to decide if it is the actual cause of my depression. im goin to wait a couple days to see if i get depressed the way i used to be... if i do, than clearly weed is the cause because i've felt fine ever since the meds. if i don't get depressed, ill rule out weed for the cause. but just for some input, how long after smoking would someone get depressed?
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Its unknown, its how quickly your body metabolizes the THC! How long it stores it in your fat cells etc. So the only think you can do is wait and see. NOW as a mother of a teenager I HAVE to say this to you! Just because you don't get depressed while on MJ DOES NOT mean you can just keep on doing it on a regular basis OK? The occaisional joint here or there might have ZERO effects on your mood after the fact! BUT continued use WILL I Guarantee you 100% that this WILL be the case! So just in LIGHT moderation, here or there IF you have to that is! Ok? Glad to hear the meds have helped you so much, and that you seem to be back to some normalcy with your moods! Just be careful with narcotics OK?
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Let me help you understand this a little. When I have too much caffeine, it can cause me to be depressed. SOMETIMES when I do it I'm totally fine! And then other times when I do it, it can really mess me up and I'm depressed for days. I know that if you try smoking, you can run a risk of being depressed again. Personally, risking it isn't worth it to me. I can't convince you one way or another, to be honest. But as someone who's been there and done that, I can tell you it's not worth it! What do you think?
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