I'm ashamed to say that after spending most of my life last year on many types of drugs including speed, meth and cocaine (which I now do not do any after I ruined my whole life, lost all independence and knowledge that i worked my ass off for since 16)I can honestly say that I've never felt so out of control and lost in my entire life. My brain cannot comprehend real life and I'm seriously scared that my now robot-like body/mind is going to do something really bad, im not sure how much longer I can do this and reading these stories makes me feel so much better to know I'm not alone,although it's terrible that others are feeling like this and I wouldn't wish IT on my worst enemy. I don't know what to do I'm scared that no one will understand. I'm loosing my mind and I'm constantly scared I might die, I also get hullucinacions and constantly think someone is standing behind me. I'm really sorry for anyone who is feeling this and I really hope everybody recovers without too much of an effect being left. Happy recovery everyone
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Hi,
I read your post , I too know regret. I accept it for what it is and sense it may go in time.
I lost 10 years to opiates. Even though I drank heavily for most of my life, Opiates are a much greater theft of time.
Here is my quit process. It may help ; it has helped me.
I decided that I would quit Subutex no matter how much it hurts.
Knowing that quitting it would hurt like hell, I knew I was setting myself up for pain.
I quit previously in 2010. It hurt and I was badly prepared.
This time I tapered from 10 mg to 0.8 mg, under supervision. from the beginning of the year to 5 days ago. The pain, such as it was broke after 3 days.
I have not yet had much sleep and I accept that. As a voracious reader it has given me the opportunity to re-read some of my favourite books. I finshed Lord of The Rings in 2 nights. I genuinely feel quite happy but abit knackered. That's it.
I can go into more detail if you wish.
Take care of yourself.
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