I am like soooo feeling bloated, and really out of Kontrol. I've been doing Pretty good on my weightloss efforts. I've been exercising religiously after every dinner meal, and drinking plenty of water too. I've learned to obscess over keeping busy so I totally forget to eat, or even think about binging on junk food. However, last night something Triggered an out of Kontrol binge. This weird guy was shadowing me while I was eating,"Fat Free Pringles" in my car. I was parked at Cosco in Hayward, and just minding my own business, quietly eating my Pringles,the only snack besides fat free licorice that I allow myself to eat sometimes between meals. Anyhow, he drove into the lot, and parked perpendikularly behind my car(not in a parking space obviouSLY!!!!!!!!!!) Then he left,FINALLY, after he stared at me in my car Enuff!! Then I finally left about 3 minutes later. Well, guess what he drives up along side my car a 1/2 mile away from where he was loitering behind me in the lot. Windows closed, he and I in traffic, he tries to talk to me through his window and----Like I can't read LIPZZ!!!!! So, he drives off, does a u turn and God only knows where he went after that...Well guess what, this weirdo who I felt was STALKING me, triggered a binge out of Fear and Frustration of the Unknown. I am very sensitive to strangers driving or walking up to me and not being straight and direct if they are going to say something. And not say something weird, or come up to my looking like a wanna be version of Jesus Christ. That happened once in the Hayward Target parking lot. This lil town out here in No California seems to attract some very strange types, who probably don't even Reside in this geographic location. Then this lady at Cosco is like having a conversation with another person, so I am amazed with the HP printer that I saw. So, I read it's label for a few secs, and it seems like she uttered loud enuf 4 me to overhear, "Oh she'z in my way now!!!" Well, excuse me lady, but I saw you talking, and I wasn't in your space, I was looking at merchandise, and she was actually blocking me in her conversation if I needed to go left where she was loitering, and abruptly uttered as I was to her right, that I was in her way. Well, isn't it weird that when I exited this Cosco, that the man in the black Ford 150 type truck shadowed me. Oh, I also had to excuse myself around and through a cluster of pesons gathered for the feast of whatever"Free Sample" they were awaiting. So I had to express my self and my shopping cart, as I needed to get myself and my perishable goods like my milk and eggs , to the registers. I did not feel the need to go 100 ft around these people all in one spot. So yes, I had to say excuse me, and a very nice man moved his cart and let me through. However this old lady  who was initially in front of me, I to her right and she directly in front of me, takes her cart and goes left with it, like a football game defensive blocker. Thus, that's when I couldn't keep going straight, or go to my left for she went left, and the nice gentleman was there on my right. Thank God, for coopertive persons in stores for thats one place  that also TRIGGERS  MY BINGE MODE. I feel frustrated, and feel as though these rude persons are just playing HEAD GAMES with my SIMPLE lil MIND.     That's when I feel like I have to go bake a lovely, batch of yummy cookies and binge out of mere and utter frustration!!!!!Will this ever end. I am like sooooooooooooooo tired of OBSTACLE COURSES in my way. In high school I almost was paralyzed going through a timed OBSTACLE course. Thank God, something saved ,"The Queen."  I flipped on the wall for the end of the darn obstacle course was way too close to "The Bloody Wall." And naturally, I'm a bit athletic, and thus, made great time, but couldn't stop at the end and therefore did a fancy skateboarder type flip and then stood upright and hyperventillated out  of an anxietyt attack and anger all in 1. So, yes I hate obstacle courses. I don't ski anymore, the altitude is too darn COLD for my COMFORT ZONE. So, I stay home in a warm little cottage, with wild flowers all around me, and bake delicious cookies instead. But, I usually bake them for others, and only eat them out of mere frustration!!!