am 24 and working as cardiovascular technologist in saudi arabia and am basically from India,,,,
what was happened actually is,i had given more importance for my enjoyment but with all scare of itz bad outcomes,(eg i want to drink acohol,smoking ,,even i wanted to try stuff ,wat was thought is in my life i have to try evertthng once in a life,,,i used to have fdrinks ,smoking)
but what happend is,,around 1year before i tried stuff but it made me so much tension and that whole day i was thinking that was going to be mad something like that,after a few days everything was came ok, and those days i was scard to smoke cigrt even didnt take drinks,after 1 week became perfectly alright and i used to take drinks and smoking but still i was having fear of stuff in mind...)
after 6 months of that iwas taking drinks with my friends ,during that time my mind got some shock like that ,what the shock was ,i misunderstood that i had stuff which given by my friens unknowingly...and that time i blamed my frns too much....and my friends scolded me ,,,why you are thinking unnecessarily and all..
next day onwards i started thinking,,y i thot like that ,,,,it was continued till last month...after that i started reading internet about my condition and i became almost fine when am busy...but if am alone again my mind will start thinking without any reason ,,,think is sometime i can understand my thinking is bad and sometime i will forget and i will be engaged with my work......but sometime ,especially in night ...i feel bad if i wanted change my mind...i cannot think anything,,,,some questions will be there like....if i speak with frns i feel am going to speak something bad or i will shout or something like that ,even ihate looking at mirror .....i cant explain everthng ...itz difficult..
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what was happened actually is,i had given more importance for my enjoyment but with all scare of itz bad outcomes,(eg i want to drink acohol,smoking ,,even i wanted to try stuff ,wat was thought is in my life i have to try evertthng once in a life,,,i used to have fdrinks ,smoking)
but what happend is,,around 1year before i tried stuff but it made me so much tension and that whole day i was thinking that was going to be mad something like that,after a few days everything was came ok, and those days i was scard to smoke cigrt even didnt take drinks,after 1 week became perfectly alright and i used to take drinks and smoking but still i was having fear of stuff in mind...)
after 6 months of that iwas taking drinks with my friends ,during that time my mind got some shock like that ,what the shock was ,i misunderstood that i had stuff which given by my friens unknowingly...and that time i blamed my frns too much....and my friends scolded me ,,,why you are thinking unnecessarily and all..
next day onwards i started thinking,,y i thot like that ,,,,it was continued till last month...after that i started reading internet about my condition and i became almost fine when am busy...but if am alone again my mind will start thinking without any reason ,,,think is sometime i can understand my thinking is bad and sometime i will forget and i will be engaged with my work......but sometime ,especially in night ...i feel bad if i wanted change my mind...i cannot think anything,,,,some questions will be there like....if i speak with frns i feel am going to speak something bad or i will shout or something like that ,even ihate looking at mirror .....i cant explain everthng ...itz difficult..
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first of all you must stop drinking smoking and if you are talking drugs then just stop it and if you can go back to india then just go back what ever is happening to you is just because of thinking alot dont think alot and giving more importance to enjoyment is not bad thing you can enjoy without that stuff then solution of this problem is that do meditation if nothing improves just go to docter ....
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