My Duromine Journey

Hey Everybody! I at first thought I would tell anyone who would listen about my reasoning for getting to this point (most likely for my own therapy) but have since decided that a lot of you have your own stories and don't need to be inundated with mine. So, I'll keep to the particulars. This is day 5 of Duromine so, in resemblance to other posts, I will keep the first few days of my journey simple, to the point and relevant. I am: 24yo Female from NSW Height: 161cms Weight: last weight recorded early June 2013 at 71kgs Where most of my fat is stored - stomach and breasts. I am a Defence Force member who regularly excercises. This includes daily crossfit WODs and cardio. I.e. running, skipping, rowing everything! I have been in a relationship for the last year now and have gotten comfortable (as you do) and I will be getting married in a few weeks and no amount of excercise or eating right (40/60) is helping me get rid of these last 5 kilos. I am mostly muscle (due to crossfit) but have struggled to tone my stomach area. This has been a major problem since childhood. I know it's a hereditary thing but I believe with the right mindset this can change so here goes! DAY ONE: Thursday 20 June - 15mgs - went to doctors, got duromine. It was still early so took it straight away. Wasn't particularly hungry throughout the day, was feeling buzzed and had a great workout! :) Afternoon came and it was time to go to an event and I had a few glasses of red wine (over the course of approx 4hrs) and I was completely obliterated. I PUT THIS DOWN TO NOT EATING IN CONJUNCTION WITH THE DUROMINE. DAY 2: Friday 21 June Slept good (alcohol induced sleep most likely) Felt good all day, no real side effects, maybe feeling a lot more engergised and talkative and productive. Did not eat much during the day today. Drank ALOT of water. Evening- forced myself to eat a large meal. Didn't feel full, just content. My gf came out to dinner and peer pressured me into drinking (I did not drink alot 4xglasses of red and 2xvodka lime and soda over 4hr period) Experienced NO over drunk feelings in reaction to the drugs Went home, slept well. DAY THREE: Saturday 22 June - upped to 30mgs Had breakfast first so I would remember to eat. Took Duromine at approx 9am (probably a bit late) felt hyper, happy same as Friday. Had 1roll salmon and cucumber sushi at 11, started to feel nauseous but pushed through the day. Started to get dry mouth -which sucks because I drink loads of water- and my jaw was hurting ALOT. Had to force myself to eat at dinnertime - Thai chicken curry. Had to go to a friends fairwell drank some wine (didn't stay out with them, needed to stop the drinking and get some sleep) Felt a little sickly at bedtime. DAY 4: Sunday 23rd June Today I felt absolutely shattered. Nauseous and.dry.mouthed and headaches and gross. Had to push through. No time for breakfast- took the Duromine at approx 730. Felt more terrible throughout the day focussed on other things. Didn't eat till dinner - forced myself to eat a large meal and then went out with hubby to meet friends who were visiting. I was feeling incredibly ill and tried to pusb past it by drinking refreshing drinks ie vodkalimesoda. Not many. Couldn't stomach it. Stayed out till 9pm. Came home slept till 3am and stayed awake until work the next day. DAY FIVE: Monday 24th June 2013 No sleep, nauseous and dry mouth. Headaches and majorly sore jaw. Sore throat. No energy (although still went to crossfit later in the day and felt a little better after that) Had 2pcs gluten free toast with vegemite-no butter!! And a soy half strength latte. Felt better. Took Duromine at alprox 930 and felt horrible by 10/1030. Sick all day (except at crossfit) couldn't function properly at work or with colleagues. Found it hard to concentrate (tiredness) No mood swings or depression, I was still fairly jovial. Now its 2244 and I am lying in bed writing this to you. I have had about 4lts or water today and my mouth is still dry. Didn't eat dinner. Felt too sick. Also MASSIVE headaches all day. Like my brain was trying to escape my head. Not cool. Needed to wee alot as well. Will ingest more sodium rich foods tomorrow. Will be going back down to 15mgs tomorrow. I am meeting with my doctor and will discuss other options. Obviously my body cannot handle 30mgs. Also, I am not usually so alcohol involved. This weekend was very booked out ahh! So please don't judge me. I will weigh tomorrow. See if there is any progress. I doubt there will be as a lot of it is inwater weight. I do LOOK alot better in the mirror but I will not feel like this just to look a little skinnier. Hopefully things will be different tomorrow!!