The price of Oxycontin

Thank you Philip, you are a Warrior!!!
Seeking medical care abroad, a frustrated Veteran with Combat i juries and loss of internal body parts. thank you
Christopher Bell

First all of you people with phsyical pain need to really take a moment & think about where your predjudice stem from; what others are really doing or something that stems from yourself.. Eg one guy on here said he's 300+ pounds.. That would explain a lot & hints at other character triats he may posses. Everyone is different, which is excactly why you need to inform yourself & take the proper steps to living a healthy life while on pain medications. No one is making you suffer.. I do acknowledge that people who go into ER's as a last ditch effort to find a pill are doing wrong by making the others wait etc.. How ever it's usually obvious by their appearence (i remind you, if i showed you a junkie placed beside someone who has just fully given up, but still gets out & needs a lot more medical help, guarantee you would not be able to tell the difference).

These people that lie & clog up the system, you usually wouldn't think are what you call "Junkies" (which i have learned due to experience that the term Junkie is used heavily by people on pain medications, kind of funny when the persons in the state they're in because of mental health issues, the real junkie is some one who needs 1000 mg's of pain medication to function)... People that are the types to hide their addiction & take any chance to sh*t on others as a way to compensate & cover up how they truly feel about themselves. Seen many cases, &to be blunt here with many years of work it is possible to pratically fully recover unless left paralyzed, truth is most just stay on pills for ever, developing mental health issues, a lowering self esteem, become reserved & serective. It'll cost you more to stay on those pills a lifetime, you need a proper recovery regiment, &despite your attitude or anything just decide you're not going to quit, final. Good indicator it's working is that it feels too difficult; you feel like quitting every single day, till one day you notice that you don't... The old you is back again" the real you but stronger... Then things are easier from there. If you're not willing to sit down & have a multiple hour, in depth conversation with the person then truly you can not decide & determine such a label should belong to anyone let a lone Everyone.... Unless they advertise bluntly that they're supporters of Hitler's philosophies or just wear a swastica on their forehead.. Even then, it takes a lotttt more to get to know somebody.. I'll offer you some insight into my story with pain medications, starting when i was 12... My brother hung out with real screwed up people, they thought they were gangsters this that & the other thing..

Growing up i always remember there being some sort of problem with him getting beat up, a few times so bad they didnt know if he'd make it, wake up, &recover "normally" etc.. He had a lot of issues, i believe stem from my mother & brain injuries.. She stopped trying with me (i was not a difficult child, just abnormally silent) my brother feeling like he could somehow step up &fix things; thought that trying to discipline me his way would help... Fast forward a few weeks into him getting use to being able to control & manipulate a person. (i'm 12, too young, only fuled by emotion & sense) He asks me to find & steal my other brothers oxy. I refuse stunned, too young to even make a proper decision, but im not going through everything he has to find a pill.. He looses it... Slams me to the floor, gets on top, & starts punching me repeatedly... Stops after a bit & says ok you're grounded then.. &walks away.. Next day when i'm going about my day naturally, getting ready after dinner to go out, he must have been obsessing about me & comes flying upstairs & immediately flips out asking where do i think im going.. I'm grounded... I ask are yoou serious, because i didn't steal for you? (he grounded me because i refused to find & steal him an Oxy from my other brother) Then another onslaught is initiated.... God forbid i try to reason or defend myself... (this abuse & much worse persisted till i was about 17 - 18, damage how ever was already done).. I am speaking with a girl at the time, loosing her interest becuase i'm just not around, one night when were speaking she says she will sneak out to meet me half way, (we both lived @the ends of a long a street) i'm so scared, my brother sleeps all day & is awake all night, so he'll notice... (I made a decision that took only a few minutes that has impacted my life ever since) Instead of sneaking out, i'll ask him, when / if he says no i'll tell him i'll "find" him that pill. He did say no, &before i could offer he said, "you can go anywhere you want anytime... when you do you know what".. After i found & stole it from my brother, it / i had created a greenlight for future abuse. &believe me i'm putting that lightly.. If i was to show any disconcern with him getting me to steal it for him a floodgate of punches would ensue. After a while i remember thinking to myself one of these times he's not going to stop &if he could do this to me for that, why does he care so much about a pill?..

So when one time as i was stealing one for him, (i'm now 13) i decided to steal one for myself. I didn't even take the coating off, i remember taking a piece out of it & crushing it up & snorting a little (as i saw my brother do too many times before i had stole one for myself)... I didn't go to school the next day & stayed home using that.. (in gr.9 the teachers didn't call home if you skipped, &brother slept all day, only time i felt actually free, not using but skipping, seeing as once evning hit i was bound up &pratically mentally tortured, not exaggerating, it was this guys obsession). The on & off again use of pills (i've been very fortunate to not have lost my lfe down a devoted path of using / have ever used anything more then a small line of a 40oc. Never have ingested any other way then insuffilation with a pill in the 5yrs i used, or used more then a small line in an hour.

Now @ 25, it's been two years since i've used a pill, & for 3 months prior to that i was on suboxone once a day. How ever i do need a few grams of Kratom to stay mentally myself. No pills & years of therpy have helped waking up in the middle of the night just balling.. no explanation just an extreme feeling of guilt & crying, daily anxieties from PTSD, etc.. i'd be on a whole list of drugs if not for Kratom at the moment. My point i was getting to (which i feel truly needed the excessive ingiht too) was there's a world of issues & other reasons why someone may be addicted other then to just "feel good" or "feel high". Opiates if not for there other downfalls would be a miracle drug for mental health issues.

I have stage four breast cancer, it has metastasized to my lymph nodes and to the bones. Before finding out I had cancer l broke my spine, leg, arm, shoulder, foot and wrist.. I was also diagnosed with arthritis and osteoporosis. I will need to be on oxycodine and OxyCONTIN for the rest of my life. I am very grateful to the pain management clinic that I go to. Tha problem. Is finding a pharmacy that carries the drugs. When I find a pharmacy, I have to always for them to order the drugs this can take day's. They fear keeping them in stock because of being robbed. Even though they keep the drugs in a day. I take up to 400mg"s of the drugs, so l really notice when l do not have them. The pharmacy is not allowed to call and find out what pharmacy has them in stock. Sad to think what people will do for these drugs. One good thing about my condition is l will never have worry about going through the withdrawal symptoms.
Lori

Opposite problem. I can't afford oxycontin ,on it 2 years now and pain dictator refuses to change . Why would that be ?

Hi Philip,

I hope this reply is posted as a reply to your comments and not to what you were replying to yourself, which is what it is.
I have had severe chronic pain 16 years and wholeheartedly endorse everything you wrote except for your inability to understand why decisions are made by the most powerful people that reduce availability of drugs and increase the suffering of patients whilst allowing ridiculous propagander to flourish that results in an incorrect public opinion of the real truth.
The people at the uppermost echelons of society with personal wealth that is unimaginable have always made their money by manipulating the entire society and selling drugs.
They have always profited immensely from the death and suffering of humans and they always will.
They are in complete control of the overall opinions of society and almost everything else on earth and do not feel even the tiniest bit bad about it in any way.
Anymore so than you would care about an ants nest with a functioning society within that once stood where your house is now.
Look at things within this perspective and it will be clear and make perfect sense.
Don't be upset or despondent about it because there is nothing you can do to change it, it is what it is and that's the world we have to work with.
You just have to accept it, be at peace with it and work with what we can change because if you start to realise the real truth of what goes on and you cannot let it go then once you start dwelling on realisations like the probability that people like Osama bin laden ever really existed and why he was invented,
You will go crazy.

It just is what it is.

So what is the name of ur doc and where located I know some one in need of such medical help n is having a hard time finding a doc

I'm glad I am a veteran. I pay a two dollar copay on everything.

Then you are not really in severe pain .Just another over opinionated as****e.

I AM ON 20 MG OXYCONTIN . I SALE THE FOR $15 A PEICE. I LIVE IN SACRAMENTO ,CA

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This whole doctor control situation is why I live in Medellin, Colombia. I can buy my Oxy for about $50 /150,000 cop for 30 pills of 40 mg's without a doc note. I got tired of being in pain i the USA, Austin, Texas with my L5S1 pinched nerve and docs holding out on me causing me to suffer in the so called "civilized, free states" of America. Here in Colombia I can live without pain and more freedom. RKP

Stop cold turkey with available pills is impossible. I get a 30 day prescription and one 31 day month with a holiday weekend got me good. I ordered my refill two days before I ran out, unfortunately, the doctor's office closed that Friday, the day I ran out. Let me just tell you this, if I didn't believe in God and suicide being a sin, it's exactly what I would have done. I discovered something about us that are on this medication; when we get close to running out, we all face anxiety. We begin counting hours and pills with a terrible fear of running out, because when we run out, it's the worse torture in life, probably worse than water board. I have CMT and my pain is like a terrible toothache all over. My muscles feel like I worked out too much, that muscle soreness that never goes away, but the fear of not having medicine makes me suffer 3 days a month to make sure I accumulate pills, just so that I have more than enough. Now, I no longer have those 3 days of anxiety leading to the next refill. That plan of mine has allowed me to go on vacation without the panic of running out. For every month's prescriptions, I accumulated one day worth of reserved medication. Reason being, I found out that, if I lose my prescription, I'm not getting a replacement, that in itself was another anxiety. Always wondering if I could ever tolerate that holiday weekend ever again. Well, by saving a few pills from each month, I no longer live in fear of running out, I now have 6 weeks worth of pills in my reserves. If there's a computer crash or a cyber attack, and pills become instinct, I have enough to cut down one pill a day, cut two pills a day and so on until I gradually get it off my system. Wait, if for any reason we can't get them anymore, I won't be able to survive, much less live with the pain... LOL, what good is it to save these? Yeah, take them all at once might be an idea. Just being sarcastic.

I do not blame you, So sorr I have AIDS, had TB. with/9 t-cells, so scince 1994 I been in severe pain with a hernia, and I would take so less of I coudl of OXICOTIN, I have staged so many that I hope u have hope so long

Anyone know a reliable Doc that does give Oxy? I was shot 3 times during a home invasion almost 5 years ago. I still have 2 bullets remaining, 1in my back, the other, wait for it - It is lodged in the Cerebellum portion of my brain. Yes my brain. Similar to Senator Gabreil Gefford, difference being the bullet she took exited, mine did not. She get great pain meds, I do Not! Been to several pain managements in the greater Phoenix AZ area but none of the Drs seem to want to do much. 10s at best. Been on them for almost 5 years. I have Siatica and Dissinagreating Disc in my lower lumbar as well. But they tend to ignore those issues as soon as they look at my chart and find out about the bullet in my brain.  I would be forever grateful. Thank you.

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philip,
is there anyway I can contact you in private in regards to your experience with oxycontin?
regards