Things I like VS. things I don't like

Well, they say it's never too late to experiment new things and learn about yourself. At my 28 years, I decided to live and enjoy my sexual life. In the past, I used to feel ashamed of being single. It was sort of a synonymous for "lonely", "lonesome", "loner" and the like. It had a totally negative meaning. Now, I experience it in a different way, and I'm starting to see the bright side to it. Being single it's to me a state of "freedom", although I know it might sound like a cliché, and I'm getting a taste for the chances it brings.

After this boring introduction, here's the point: I discovered that I don't like receiving oral sex, and there are also certain sexual positions which I don't like as much as I though I would.

When I was younger, my first sexual experiences had more to do with oral sex than penetrative sex. It felt good, yes, and let's say that those experiences cought up with my expectantions and my fantasies.

But when I found out about how penetrative intercourse felt like, it absolutelly change my perspective.

I mean, receiving oral sex bores me so much. I guess there are three reasons for it. First of all, as I said, oral sex was -during a lot of years- the most I had, and the only way I experienced sex, so penetrative intercourse has the plus of the novelty, I guess. In second place, I feel uncomforable because I don't know what to do with my body, with my arms, with my hands; I wouldn't lay on my back with both hands crossed in the nape of my neck, that would be gross. But neither I like to caress the other person while they're "at it". Why? Well, that leads my to the third point: I feel so "far away" from them. I love to caress and kiss and etcetera, but I need to feel the other person as near as possible, and having them down below doesn's help that much.

And regarding sexual positions... It's almost the same scenario. I prefer the ones with more eye to eye and skin to skin contact. They on top, me on top, whatever. But I tried doggy-style and it didn't worked: I lost my erection and even when I could mantain it, I wasn't feeling comfortable.

Of course, I learnt all these things whlist being in no serious relationship. I guess that, with a steady girlfriend, I will eventually discover new ways for feeling pleasure, and it will involve trying new positions and etcetera. And it will be a shared process, in which both of us will learn and discover new things. But the current panorama is quite afar from that, and I'd rather deal with the "here and now".

So... There are a bunch of things I do like. For instance kisses and hugs and caresses, and both sweet and dirty talking, and lots of foreplay, for which penetration is almost like "the cherry as the top of the cake", if you will. But in this matter as in any other matter in life, I'm facing this struggle between what I like and what I should like. I don't want to be a sexually boring person, you know, but -on the other hand- I don't want to do things I don't find arousing.

Question is: what should I do?

That's all.

Thanks for reading!