What gets you off when I masbrate I tryed a few things and they did not work

So I have not masbrate sances I was in the 5 grade I grow up whare my mom said I was a bad person for doing it she notices me one time when I was lil now I am 21 and I whant to I tried yesterday but nothing got me off I teyed a hair brush hands then a pillow it work but it was week and I hurt myself I whant it to be more stronger what do u use to get off that works Whell I am use to a vibrater but sance I moved I can not find it so I am kind of use to stuff that vibrate to get off I just hop my parents didn't find it when they whent in thare also I know people take bath to have fun with thare selfs for parents don't know but I only take showers and my door don't lock in bedroom so how can I with out parents knowing Wat till thare in bed even though they go to sleep at 2 in the morning ? I am a girl