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i was on 80mg of methadone for 1.5 years - which they put me on for panadeine use... i was told not to try going off methadone cold turkey, to go off it gradually, then go on suboxone blah blah blah, i won't be able to do it - all this sort of thing.
i took my last dose on 10 july and it's now 4 september. i can't say they were exaggerating about the physical symptoms and the time frame (at least 2 months), which did surprise me.
but... for the last two weeks, i have felt suicidal and so depressed that i can barely type this. i usually just lie there and look at the ceiling all day. is this from coming off methadone? or is this just me without the aid of any drugs? am i just a weak person? obviously to get to this place, i have weaknesses.
i'm already on anti-depressants (and have been for years). i'm reluctant about the prospect of changing them because i know you have to go thru a washout period and then get put on another AD, wait around for a couple of weeks and see if that one works, then they increase it and find that it's not helpful and you go through another washout period and there's a real possibility that none of them will work.
has anyone else experienced this kind of withdrawal? ie when the physical withdrawal syptoms let up, you feel so depressed you can't get out of bed?
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thekidsaredoomed wrote:
I'm a 24 year old female. I was buying methadone illegally (worst decision ever) and was taking 20mg-30mg a day to get high because I couldn't get my hands on other pills... that lasted a couple of weeks. Before I knew it I was dependent on it. I weened myself down to 5mg-2.5mg a day. I have been steady on 5mg of meth for about two months just to get thru each day. I decided to take my last dose over a week ago, I'm on my 8th day of withdrawal and it seems not to be getting any better. I feel depressed, a little anxious, uncomfortable, and have terrible stomach cramps along with diarrhea. Does anyone know how long this will last? I thought by a week I would start feeling better, but it's day 8 and I feel the same as I did on day 5.
I haven't been clean during this process... I don't think I would have made it without the help of other opiates. During the first 5 days I have been doing about 20-15mg of Perc a day which has helped me tremendously. On day 6 I took a quarter of an 8mg Suboxone (so about 2mg). I stayed clean on day 7 and felt a little bit better, and when I woke up today (day 8) I feel like total c**p again so I took another 2mg of Suboxone. Does anyone know if the Perc or Suboxone was a bad route to take? I'm afraid this might have prolonged my WD. Or does Methadone really take this long to leave my body? I'm never touching Methadone again... I thought OC was a b***h to get off of... I've met it's match. Please, if anyone has gone thru this I would really appreciate some thoughts or advice. Getting high is the last thing on my mind, I just want to feel like a normal person again. :-(
I totally know what your going through Hon. First of all you are extremely strong and I give you an enormous amount of credit for making it as far as you have. I myself having been trying to find a way off methedone for the past 3 years, It is by far the most difficult thing I have ever come up against. I felt it was important to let you know that suboxone can put you into the worst withdrawl of your life if you take it when your not in total and complete withdrawl it pretty much has the adverse effect it is supposed to have. The make meth patients get down to 40 mls then go completely cold turkey for 3 days and then they finally give you the suboxone when you are on deaths doorstep. If your taking any drugs and even have 10 mls of meth in your system, please stay away from the suboxone, I would hate to see you get even more sick than you are my heart goes out to you. Also they Methedone Anonymous now too, that may help and I would just keep on weening yourself down and you will make it because thankfully you are down to such a low dose. Just remember that the suboxone may have had the adverse effect on you and that might be why you are still feeling do sick. You are so strong, Please don't give up, You WILL make it!!!!!!!
Sorry about my terrible spelling lol, and if you ever need a friend to talk to I am always here:) Take care, stay strong.
Jess
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I have hon , to the point where I have not even been able to dress myself, simply because I cannot function, clean my house, look after my son properly to the point where I have had to move my Mom in to help me take care of him and me thank god I have a support person, for so many years I didn't. Anyway back on topic I am also on 80 I was on 125 mls about 4 months ago, and I am just a mess I don't know how else to put it. I am terrified top go any lower because I thought I was superwoman and got all the way down to 40 mls so they could finally suboxone me off and save me from this hell, well lets just say I found myself in the hospital the day my dose hit 40 mls and was admitted for cardiac arrest, I was about 90 pds and looked repulsive, sorry scratch that, I looked like I was dying and quite frankly I was! How the hell did they expect me to go cold turkey for three days when i was almost dying at 40? I am just hoping if you get any info about how to get down to 40(obviously I know it will be uncomfortable) but we shouldn't have to call an ambulance because of trying to get off this poison! I am going to call CamH and see about the anesthetic program apparently they can put you under anesthetic for 9 - 11 days and get you over the worst of it safely and get you working on getting on and then off suboxone. I will post if I find any info. All the best, My heart really goes out for you, stay strong
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Me Again ( Mickael ) Thought I'd check in with my progress, It''s almost a month since I finished my taper, ( See Above post) and I can tell you all it gets much better... I'm back to normal feeling good having a few laughs..... a sure sign is that for the past 10 days.... I haven't even thought about having been on Methadone at all.... it's becoming a distant memory as is all the things that come with it...ie having to go to the dr and the pharm and take it everyday..... so hang in there everyone, it works and it gets better.... BTW the reason I wrote the first post and this one is because most times once people get back to normal methadone free life and it's been successful for them, they don't come back on to tell the good news....as a result the vast majority of stories and experiences are negative ones...... so here's a good news it works post. Cheers, and stick with it, you'll never regret it, and it will become a faded memory to chalk up to experience.
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My advice ( in addition to my posts ) is you MUST remove drugs from your life & living situation....DON'T be confrontational with the guy you're with... a fight will cause stress and will serve no positive purpose. If you partner can not commit to getting off drugs ( Merthadone is The Way...for MOST the only way ) ..... then you have to get you and your kid(s) away from that living arrangement. If you do this and get clean and feeling good... maybe that will inspire him to do the same.....Make your life into what you want it to be....set your goals and stick to them, and you'll get them. Today is the first day of the rest of your life....a NEW life... that you NOW...RIGHT NOW... choose for your self to live.
Hope this helps...Good Luck Mickael
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