Can't keep a job, People get on my nerves, I end up fighting

He obviously loves her and that's what love is all about patience, kindness and selflessness. You don't give up on people you love.

I totally feel you on what you go through and the guilt you feel towards your partner having to pull the whole load. I have had 23 jobs from retails, sales, insurance agent, construction, healthcare, 1st Year RN Student ; you name it, Ive probably worked in a field related to it. I had been carrying around a lot of pain from not only my childhood but also from the military. One day during RN school I decided that I wasn't going to be sad anymore and I was ready to take the blame with my counselor and move forward. In my first sessions I swore up and down that I had done all of the bad things I was accused of doing during my childhood and during and post service. I was surprisingly shocked to find out that it wasn't all me and that a lot of bad things had happened but I learned at an early age that you could do this magic thing called "stuffing your problems" and I could ignore the trauma. Well I learned that over time those problems snowball into this big ol' ball of anger and f**k the world. So through counseling I found that I had been dealing with with PTSD for almost a decade, major depressive and alcohol use disorder. Once I started taking the meds and going to therapy, my world view started to change towards the positive. Then I found I through sleeping tests that I had complex sleep apnea and that I had not had a good nights rest in many, many years. So I was basically a sleep walking grouch, angry and sad zombie. Once I had followed my sleeping machine pattern to a T then I started experiencing other things because my mind had not been able to deal with them because it never got adequate oxygen. So in a nut shell I found that I was permanently screwed up and that the ravages of PTSD , depression and alcoholic use disorder have screwed up any chances I had at a career along with a screwed up back. So at the ripe age of 30 I put in for disability which Social Security Disability board denied me at all levels causing me to have to wait 2 years for a court hearing because of what my attorney told me that it was because I was young. Which is illegal to discriminate against someone because age or disability for that matter but as we all know the federal government can do whatever they want to and f**k the citizens right in the ass. The meaning of my initial answer/rant is that you are not alone but you must be scientific and figure out what is indeed wrong with you and to fix yourself before you husband has had enough. I knew that if I didnt work on myself that eventually my wife of left me. God Bless and also work on a relationship with Jesus Christ.

Man you nailed it. I felt so alone until I read this. lol

damn, i'm surprised he hasn't left your ass. i would have left you right where i found you.

I'm not a mental health professional. I am someone who can't keep a job. I can definitely say you have some interpersonal issues, probably stemming from unresolved past traumas. You should seek counseling for the sole purpose of having someone objective to talk to. Interview them because they're not all equal.

I say this not so much because your an individual, strong willed person but because of how you respond to people to you individualism. Your coping and response mechanisms are negative and maladaptive. Having good and health relationships are a key part of having a happy and fulfilling life. You don't have to have a lot of friend but you need a few good friends. You also need to be able to resolve conflict without fighting.

With that being said, I don't take sh*t from anyone unless it benefits me to do so. It's not a part of life for everyone, just the people who took to do so. Everything in life is a choice. You have choices. You have to face the consequences of your choices but you still have them.

I think you made the right choice when you when in the direction of self-employment. However, you should find something were your able to make a sufficient earning and limit your interactions with others or at least can control the types of interactions you have. Do understand that you need to interact with people. You're human. It's an absolute must if you want to productive, fulfilled, and happy.

Self-employment gives you flexibility. Depending on what you do, you can work the most when you feel at your best and the least when you don't. This gives you the opportunity to reduce your stress, time to refocus yourself when necessary and work on your relationship skills.

Strong willed individuals usually often benefit from self-employment despite the challenged. There's nothing like being your own boss. The truth is it gets harder to change behaviors as we age. However, it's still possible, especially for the strong willed individual. It this is bothering you make a choice to take control. Find someone to talk to. Then, seek self-employment that offers you flexibility. Use your will, flexibility, to work on you and your behaviors and outlook on people and life.

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Amen to this

Soo true, ledge

You probably are a Narcissist.You think somehow you are better than everyone else. You somehow are above it all. You find fault with everything, literally everything . No matter how much effort people try to help you . Its never enough. And you are not afraid to share your venom and distain at the most inappropriate moments making a complete ass of yourself. Once your looks start to fade at a certain age, not even the most desperate of partners will be able to endure your constant nagging and excuses. My suggestion .. “Grow the hell up” and learn to shut up.

well said, this seems accurate but also almost impossible to advise a person like this in their moments of glory...out of control... must be the hand of God ..r another trauma..shock of some kind...problem is a disconnect from reality in the brain...that allows disconnect from adaptable ...nature in critical thinking and learning patterns ...to grasp a concept of growth to accomplish ...developmental milestones ...required in life. If you want to live life at all.

Hi, I am just like this. Except I am a 22 year old male. Reading through the comments it appears people have attempted to bait you into thinking you’re disordered. I’m sure at this stage in your life you’re pretty resilient against those types of onslaughts that are ever present on the internet. I genuinely believe your reaction towards coworkers is respectable. I respect someone who’s willing to stand up for themselves a hell of a lot more than I do those who would allow themselves to be walked on for the sake of comfort. The ones who would lounge in their comfort while ultimately being no more than serfs are in my mind the most pathetic branch of humanity. Truly don’t desire to change yourself because if there is ever going to be a world that you can be satisfied living in, it will come from the type of personality which is capable of boiling the blood of those around them. So really this comes down to if you’re willing to struggle to provide a change that you’ll feel good about, or you will cave and become like them those ones you hate. They will subvert your mind until you’re fully assimilated or they’ll ostracize you to the point of wishing death. Cheers.

Hi, I am just like this. Except I am a 22 year old male. Reading through the comments it appears people have attempted to bait you into thinking you’re disordered. I’m sure at this stage in your life you’re pretty resilient against those types of onslaughts that are ever present on the internet. I genuinely believe your reaction towards coworkers is respectable. I respect someone who’s willing to stand up for themselves a hell of a lot more than I do those who would allow themselves to be walked on for the sake of comfort. The ones who would lounge in their comfort while ultimately being no more than serfs are in my mind the most pathetic branch of humanity. Truly don’t desire to change yourself because if there is ever going to be a world that you can be satisfied living in, it will come from the type of personality which is capable of boiling the blood of those around them. So really this comes down to if you’re willing to struggle to provide a change that you’ll feel good about, or you will cave and become like them those ones you hate. They will subvert your mind until you’re fully assimilated or they’ll ostracize you to the point of wishing death. Cheers.