coming off suboxone, methadone, heroin, pain pills. My experience.

I am an opiate addict. This is my story on coming off everything. What was the hardest and what was the easiest. First and foremost, I would like to say that I am 2 years sober from ALL mood and mind altering drugs and/or maitenence programs. I am 30, I did my first opiate at age 16 and was addicted soon after. I have been in and out off NA and maitenence programs for 12 years. I do qualify for this subject. I am a sleep in abandoned houses junkie. I am a I will sale my soul for opiates junkie. At one point in my life I thought that I would never stop and that I would die an active junkie. That my death would be slow and painful. That I would rot away in a ditch or be raped and stabbed to death. Today, my life is happy, joyous and free. If I can do it, anyone can. This I believe. First, coming off pills and heroin sucks. I could never even get a day under my belt unless I went into a detox but most of the time when i got out my body still wanted the drug and eventually the cravings made me relapse. I figured that my only way to get my life together was to get on the big boy, Methadone. And I did. I even did well on it. I stayed clean. But then towards the end of the treatment I did not ever feel good. I was on it over a year and my body was getting aquired to all my doses fast. Finally, at 120mg I went to my doc and said I'm ready to come off. I came down 5mgs a week to 0. I really didn't feel a big change til I hit about 40mg. After that, I felt like c**p. But, I hung on, I knew that this too had to pass eventually, and I was determined. I never used during the come off. Day 2 of being completely off was really bad and I had a child to take care of. My doc then prescribed suboxone 8mg. It helped great. But, after a week he brought me down to 6mg, where I stayed at for 2 weeks, then 4mgs where I stayed at for 3 weeks then 2 mgs, where I stayed at for 4 weeks, then 1 mg where I stayed at for 20 days, then nothing. Honestly, It was not that bad. Yes, alittle discomfort, wateryeyes, alittle hard to sleep, but tolerable. Nothing like Methadone! Within a few days of being off suboxone the energy started to come back. AS LONG AS U USE SUBOXONE RIGHT, THE WITHDRAWL IS MILD. I recommened suboxone. It was a miracle drug. I don't think I could of gotten through the withdrawl from Methadone without it and I came down to 0! There is light at the end of the tunnel. It can be done. U will have to go through some discomfort. This is enevatable. But don't use. Take your medicine as prescribed. Talk to people about it. May God be w you.