I'm absolutely losing my mind. I'm a 17 year old high school student. I began noticing things about 6 months ago. The first things I noticed were loss of reading comprehension, and major loss of creativity. It became difficult to remember anything. Thoughts will come and go, but nothing stays. I constantly draw a blank. I have had serious thoughts of suicide because I feel like there's nothing left to live for. Like I'm trapped with this feeling of emptiness. I feel like something is permanently wrong and I just can NOT live the rest of my life like this. I'm looking for any help at all.
As of right now, I'm experiencing nearly a complete loss of conscious thought, 24 hours a day. Most people talk to themselves and carry out thoughts in their heads, most people hear their own voice as they think, and I have completely lost this. I've always been a 4.0 student, but my grades are slipping. My creativity has gone OUT THE WINDOW. Ideas don't ever pop into my head like they used to. I'm not good at conversation or public speaking because I don't concentrate on what I'm saying, or what I'm going to say next. Everything I say or do is improvised on the spot.
Let me give you a bit of my history. Growing up, my mind was wild, the complete opposite of what I'm going through now. I actually suffered from insomnia because I sometimes had trouble CLEARING my mind. Now the complete opposite. I smoked marijuana a few times my freshman year, at the age of 15. To this day I have smoked less than 20-30 times, which leads me to believe this is NOT the root of the problem. I drink alcohol at parties maybe once a month. I have masturbated anywhere from 4-5 times a week, to sometimes daily for around 3 years. Not sure if this has anything to do with it, but I'm willing to put everything out there if it helps. My freshman year (when I began smoking marijuana occasionally) I also experimented with pills such as adderall, and prescription pain killers. For parts of my freshman year, I took adderall 3-4 times a week before school because I felt it boosted my performance, and kept me focused (keep in mind this is when everything was normal). The Summer before my sophomore year I stopped taking pills, but continued to OCCASIONALLY smoke marijuana. I'm talking about once every two months. Since I've noticed the problem, I've completely quit smoking, and only drank a couple times.
I'm willing to do ANYTHING to get my mind back to the way it was. I can not and WILL not live the rest of my life like this. I can't tell my parents about this, due to the fact that it could be related to alcohol or drugs. But the fact that I VERY seldomly smoke or drink, makes me think this is not the problem. If it comes down to it, I think I would tell my parents and seek help from a doctor before I commited suicide, but who knows.
I'm extremely scared about this problem. All I'm looking for is any ballpark diagnosis. I need a light at the end of the tunnel. I need to know that things will get better before I take matters into my own hands. Please...
As of right now, I'm experiencing nearly a complete loss of conscious thought, 24 hours a day. Most people talk to themselves and carry out thoughts in their heads, most people hear their own voice as they think, and I have completely lost this. I've always been a 4.0 student, but my grades are slipping. My creativity has gone OUT THE WINDOW. Ideas don't ever pop into my head like they used to. I'm not good at conversation or public speaking because I don't concentrate on what I'm saying, or what I'm going to say next. Everything I say or do is improvised on the spot.
Let me give you a bit of my history. Growing up, my mind was wild, the complete opposite of what I'm going through now. I actually suffered from insomnia because I sometimes had trouble CLEARING my mind. Now the complete opposite. I smoked marijuana a few times my freshman year, at the age of 15. To this day I have smoked less than 20-30 times, which leads me to believe this is NOT the root of the problem. I drink alcohol at parties maybe once a month. I have masturbated anywhere from 4-5 times a week, to sometimes daily for around 3 years. Not sure if this has anything to do with it, but I'm willing to put everything out there if it helps. My freshman year (when I began smoking marijuana occasionally) I also experimented with pills such as adderall, and prescription pain killers. For parts of my freshman year, I took adderall 3-4 times a week before school because I felt it boosted my performance, and kept me focused (keep in mind this is when everything was normal). The Summer before my sophomore year I stopped taking pills, but continued to OCCASIONALLY smoke marijuana. I'm talking about once every two months. Since I've noticed the problem, I've completely quit smoking, and only drank a couple times.
I'm willing to do ANYTHING to get my mind back to the way it was. I can not and WILL not live the rest of my life like this. I can't tell my parents about this, due to the fact that it could be related to alcohol or drugs. But the fact that I VERY seldomly smoke or drink, makes me think this is not the problem. If it comes down to it, I think I would tell my parents and seek help from a doctor before I commited suicide, but who knows.
I'm extremely scared about this problem. All I'm looking for is any ballpark diagnosis. I need a light at the end of the tunnel. I need to know that things will get better before I take matters into my own hands. Please...
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I started the thread twice on accident, and don't know how to delete the other one. This is the edited version. I apologize.
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I'm sorry I cannot help you more but I will say:
It is NOT the drugs. It is something that you can change yourself. I wish you every success, don't fear, things can only get better.
It is NOT the drugs. It is something that you can change yourself. I wish you every success, don't fear, things can only get better.
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Hello,
I am 17 also, and I am experiencing something similar. I used to take adderal consistently, and smoke marijuana very infrequently, and drink alcohol every couple weeks. Did you find anything helped you? please let me know
I am 17 also, and I am experiencing something similar. I used to take adderal consistently, and smoke marijuana very infrequently, and drink alcohol every couple weeks. Did you find anything helped you? please let me know
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I am experiencing the same thing. It's very depressing and it's hard to get along with people when you're feeling so low and hopeless. I hung out with an old best friend today and it wasn't the same. I am a completely different person. Used to be very outgoing and related to people very easily. I don't know what the cause of this is, but it's heartbreaking. I'm engaged and I'm trying really hard, but it gets tough to put on this happy facade when you feel so depressed. If you find anything please let me know too. Best of luck to you too. Please don't give up. I'm trying not to and I know it gets really hard.
Love and good wishes,
Dani
Love and good wishes,
Dani
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It sounds like an iodine deficiency. I would recommend doing some research on this supplement. It isn't straight forward like most vitamins and minerals because it works better with companion nutrients such as selenium (in the form of selenomethionine) and magnesium. You may even notice benefits straight away. The best iodine to start out with is a form called Lugol's. You could start out with a couple of drops per day, plus 200mg of selenium. It's best to research this topic though because there is some negativity surrounding iodine due to pharmaceutical companies putting the scare on the public to sell their thyroid drugs instead of using a natural supplement (same old story really).
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Hi friends,
I think that is the main problem that today's youth is facing generally, but smoking, drinking, taking drugs is not the solution for it, try to avoid such bad practices, this can take into well, and affect your health and nervous system, if having any depression and any threaten about anything, try to avoid such situations, and make positive attitude towards life, it will give you a new way to your life, or you can consult a doctor specialist in it.
I think that is the main problem that today's youth is facing generally, but smoking, drinking, taking drugs is not the solution for it, try to avoid such bad practices, this can take into well, and affect your health and nervous system, if having any depression and any threaten about anything, try to avoid such situations, and make positive attitude towards life, it will give you a new way to your life, or you can consult a doctor specialist in it.
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Hey, I'm 16 and I have the same problem. I cannot remember anything after 2days and my mind is completely blank, I also find it hard to consentrate & I feel like I have lost my tracks.
My Doctor suggested it might be because of ''Insomnia'' which is a sleeping disorder, It can mess with your head and last a very long time. Find out from your doctor or try talk to them and see what they suggest.
If you want a full inspection of your health I suggest you do a hair test. They will find out everything which is wrong with you. It'll all be explained! :-D
My Doctor suggested it might be because of ''Insomnia'' which is a sleeping disorder, It can mess with your head and last a very long time. Find out from your doctor or try talk to them and see what they suggest.
If you want a full inspection of your health I suggest you do a hair test. They will find out everything which is wrong with you. It'll all be explained! :-D
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Hey, I dont know how things worked out for ya. Hopefully that was all temporary. If you are still having a hard time, I'd try taking a high dose multivitamin just in case you are deficient in anything. Otherwise I'd say its most likely due to adderall use. Its not uncommon to experience mild slowing or "blankness" of the mind for an extended period after adderall use. This is because the dopamine receptor densities in the brain change when using adderall, so when you go off of it, it resembles a dopamine deficient state (don't worry - its not like Parkinson's disease), depending on the person it can take quite awhile to get back to normal.
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