Disgusted because I pleasure myself

Luca1323599 over a year ago

I masturbated earlier and I ruined my 3 day streak of not doing it and I'm so disgusted with myself, this is probably because I've been depressed because I can't cum yet, it's even changed how I view masturbation, I don't get it and I don't know how to stop and it's really pissing me off. I'll even list what the depression does

Decrease in mood instantly (when I see something like a semen joke etc)

Cannot look at baby pictures

Starting to not be able to masturbate

And more stuff, some that even disgusts me more.

Puberty Information

Growing Chest hair

Armpit hair (little)

Pubic hair ( a lot)

Mustache growing in

Arm hair

Leg hair

My testicles are a little over an inch long measured from the long axis

My voice cracks

I can achieve pre-ejaculation, but can't ejaculate (main reason I made this post, because I'm depressed about how I can't) *I've been able to pre-ejaculate for almost 5 months*

I am 4'11 and 81 1/2 pounds

I don't know how to stop this depression (This has been going on since June 6th, 2014, and it all started because of a post I read online.) It was a post about people talking about their first ejaculation, and it's been bothering me since, it formed an obsession. I don't know what's going to happen first, me ejaculating, or me finally snapping.

I'll turn 13 in less then 2 months

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obscure seaplane over a year ago

Hey Lucas I sent you a PM that was before I saw this post. If all of the information you gave is accurate you are pretty far developed for your age I know it can be incredibly frustrating it took me a while to be able to ejaculate however it did come eventually. And don't be hard on yourself because you masturbated it is extremely normal once you start masturbating it is very hard to stop and your hormones will build up. Just because you masturbated after three days and you wanted to wait longer doesn't mean that you can't try it again just try and wait again and see what happens. Please do not be so hard on yourself I know it seems like a terrible issue now and can be very depressing but try to look for all the other good things in your life right now obsessing over this and focusing over this just adds unneeded stress to your life you're 13 you need to enjoy your youth.

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obscure seaplane over a year ago

Another thing I wanted to add is you don't have a lot of under arm hair yet which means you're definitely not done with puberty also your testicles are only about half grown they are usually on average about 2 inches long when you're an adult. Do not over obsessed with that size because everybody is a little different however you still have some growing to do. This is good which means your ability to ejaculate is still coming

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Luca1323599 over a year ago

I don;'t know how to stop this

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obscure seaplane over a year ago

Have you tried reading posts about people who are in the same situation as you and they hadn't been able to ejaculate yet? Try focusing on people who have the same problem as you and know that you're not alone instead of reading things about people who have been able to ejaculate. Believe me there are tons of kids your age and older who have not had their first ejaculation I know it's hard with some of the friends are around who talk about ejaculatimg it can be very difficult to make it hard to not feel bad about yourself but you are not alone

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Luca1323599 over a year ago

No because most of the posts about people not being able to are years old and they probably can now.

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obscure seaplane over a year ago

Well thoes posts may be old but at one time they were going thought the same thing you are and also do you think you are the only one that currently is going through this? There is always going to be people going through the same thing you are. When I was your age I was the exact same way

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Luca1323599 over a year ago

I've never heard of someone being depressed about how they can't cum yet, I even delete people off my Facebook if they post a semen joke. I even had to train myself to know if there's going to be a semen joke somewhere or something like that. Like a few minuts ago my Youtube notification light was on and someone made a comment that said "this is why I dislike children" and someone else commented "ohhhhhhhhhhh so you hate your se..." There was more of the comment, and I was about to click it and then a voice in my head just said no, and I'm happy I didn't

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obscure seaplane over a year ago

Yep sometimes you just need to find something else to take your mind off of Post jokes and comments that make you upset. Because unfortunately there's really nothing you can do until it happens and I know that doesn't help much because it really bothers you so the best thing to do is avoid situations that might make you think about ejaculating or seamen or anything like that. Do you watch porn at all?

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Luca1323599 over a year ago

I rarely watch porn, because it reminds me

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obscure seaplane over a year ago

Ok that's a good thing avoid things that trigger your depression

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Guest over a year ago

I see your last post is 11 months old so your 'problems' may have sorted themselves out by now. I call them 'problems' because they really aren't. Masturbation is not a problem; it's one of the joys of boyhood. (Of girlhood too though fewer girls learn early.) Your problem if any isn't that you masturbate, it's that you feel disgusted about doing so. As for your physical development it will no doubt proceed apace. Some features (e.g. hair, voice) may come earlier and others (size) may come later but ... _you_ can come any time you want ;-)

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