I am having an abortion next week. I will be around 7.5 weeks pregnant. It will be an in clinic- surgical abortion. I am absolutely terrified. I know its very rare that women have complications after- but it does not ease my fear. My husband and I are 100 percent confident in the decision to terminate; so its not fear of regretting my choice. I am scared of dying or having major complications. I had an abortion about 5.5 years ago at 15 weeks along and it was terrible. The procedure itself i barely remember since i was slightly sedated. However after was awful. I left the clinic just fine and my husband and I started the 3 hr drive home. We stopped at a gas station about 45 mins from home and I got out to get some food- I was starving. I felt light headed after making it inside so i told my husband to grab what i needed and I headed to the car. I made it just out of the door before passing out and hitting my head on the brick. I was out for a minute so they called an ambulance who transported me to the hospital. I was bleeding so badly that it completely soaked through my maxi pad, through my pants, and onto the cot. The doctor came in and I dont really remember the next 3 days or more. I am even more terrified this time because my husband can only stay with me the day following the procedure- after this he has to go back to work. Meaning that I am alone with my 2 daughters (5 and 3) with no other support or help. I am just so scare I am going to faint with it just being us here. I wish i could just go and stay in the hospital for a week after. I am not looking for pity. Just support and understanding. Maybe share your stories with me. Bonus points if you were freaking out and it ended up being fine. Thanks in advance.
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