Emotions after an abortion...

I understand exactly how you feel, a similar thing happened to me. My period didn't start when it was supposed to, so I went to see my doctor. I had no idea that I could possibly be pregnant, I fooled around but never had sex, but what do you know I was pregnant. I'm 28 but I was in school and didn't have a good enough job to support myself let alone a child. And the father, I knew he would never give me the time of day again, so I knew that I had to have an abortion. My parents were very understanding and did what any good parent does, support their child, my sister and her husband were another story. They freaked, and wanted me to keep it and let them raise it an d give it back to me when I was ready. I knew that it just wouldn't work out, so I went though with my abortion, it was the hardest thing I've ever done, and I don't wish it on the most horrible person in the world. I have those feelings, like I was selfish, relieved, like I had a quick fix, I just didn't want to wait and have someone force me into keeping it. This has effected my job performance, my schooling, I feel angry because the father won't give me the time of day even though I tried to talk to him. I feel alone, and that I can't see my sister or her kids. So yes, I know exactly what you're feeling. My Boss is on my ass all the time and I just want to yell "I HAD AN ABORTION PLEASE JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!" My hormones drive me crazy, I'm hungry all the time, and just want to eat ice cream constantly. So I know how you're feeling.

I feel similar to you, except I have two children, and I just had my second abortion two weeks ago. I know people would like to judge but they don't know your story or why you made the choice you made.. I got pregnant ON birth control and the first time I told my boyfriend. We already have two kids together but are not married. We were not in a good financial place two years ago and we had both previously agreed that we didn't want more kids. So I had a surgical abortion. I did not feel one bit guilty about because it's what we both wanted and I felt at peace with my decision. This time, I found out I was pregnant again and felt dumbfounded. How does this happened to me two years later, when I was SO sure I didn't want more kids ??! So I decided to have an abortion. I could not tell him. I tried so many times and the words just got stuck in my throat. I didn't tell anyone except one best friend. The fact that I cannot communicate with this man lets me know I made the right choice again. Although we already have two beautiful children and I do not regret them for a second, I do not want more kids with someone who will not marry me or discuss it. I know it's partly my fault for having kids with someone without a ring. 

But this time, I am sad. I am angry. At myself, at him. The fact that I didn't tell him and the fact that I went through this alone. There are soooo many conflicting emotions going through me that I don't even know if I could explain them or separate them all. My bleeding has slowed down finally and I am relieved that I am no longer pregnant, but I also feel sad and guilty, and I don't know why. The past two weeks have been a roller coaster, and I see now that I need to end this relationship but I can't find the courage. I can't even talk to him about how I feel, he doesn't appreciate me and we both need to move on. 

I hope I heal from all of this sometime in the future, but for now I am just a mess emotionally. Sorry my post was so long and off topic a little, but I'm just trying to deal with this and hope that I can find someone else to relate to my story.

I had an abortion about 9-10 months ago, but lately, every time I drink even a little bit, I get really sick the next day. I just want to know if it could be from my abortion? Can alcohol affect you 10 months after an abortion?